- counting your fingers
check your phone.
you're all alone.
all i think about
is the comic i
picked up yesterday.
i'm failing school
not to worry.
i'll go home and forget
i'm not in a hurry.
i'll text my sweetheart
i love her so much
i hope she knows
i'm not lying.
she's all my brain
knows anymore.
all my brain knows
is numbers
light switches
hyper fixiate
on the movie
i put on while
i fall asleep.
i dream, my head
hits the pillows
my head is so loud
people's voices from
throughout my day.
this movie won't stop
it just replays.
this world isn't safe
the one on screen is
a superhero with a
soft voice told me so.
childish, it's all
they see of me
i promise i have
a brain underneath
my complexity.
one day i'll cry
no one will hear
they'll think these tears
are for someone not here,
someone not real
in a different realm.
if you don't turn
the lights off
three times in a row
bad luck will come.
paranoia sleeps through
my bones. it aggravates me.
my brain won't shut up.
an endless loop
of song earworms.
please
please don't tell me
to shut up. i just
want to talk about
a story i made up.
i just want to talk
about a comic i read
where the evil died
and the good lived.
i just want to talk
all the time
project my feelings
scream them in lines.
i just want to talk
to my friend beside me
about how my favourite
character has a special place
inside of me.
my heart, it lives
in a place that isn't real
the only escape for
my loud brain to heal.
i promise you i'm having fun
in my own pretend world
i don't want to go home.
my favourite song is playing
and i'm in a heroes arms.
i'll kill a clown and dismember
his charms.
i'll let my eyes glow ember
i'll let my feet not touch
this ground.
{ this is a personal piece about my adhd, inspired by my honey unhallows }
