Inside life 2019

Anonymous 9

The experience

Where should I start from....did u just say 2019?

Truth is the word they say life is full of ups and downs....so have been my life all dis years....I actually gat so much going on when u say ''LIFE'' ...BUT THE WORD ADORNED  WITH 2019....want me want to laugh and also cry..

Yes, I am me, a *yr old girl with lot to share....am an orphan as far back as when I was tender....raised by a  single mother of  WE(more than three children).....

I did met frnds just like I see enemies too....stayed so free yet it never paid....mum, my warrior....with shield design with sweat-dripping metal....sword made of du'a....

With toil and pain I was raised, days of hunger....and days of sadness.....at times I feel am running mad.....just recently suicidal thought crossed my mind....it hurts so much that I can't put my pain down in words, I can't describe the grieve that engulf me when I dwell on my past,experience my present and await the future....you think u are young....YES!! You may be but....my audience....I grew d moment the reality laid its cold hand on me....

The feeling when u see ur mum so helpless yet u can do nothing

The feeling u could see the tears gathered in her eyes....the feeling she is hungry while u swallow the little she have to give...she is salivating.... She is hungry ...just a spoon could do ....BUT SHE SACRIFICED!!!!!!!😭😭😭

''She stoops to conquer'' they say ....nah ....but she stoops to rise!!!! 4 us to rise

ALHAMDULILAH!!! glory B TO HIM THE CREATOR OF SADNESS THE INFLICTER OF PAIN ...THE BENEFICENT THE MERCIFUL

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FRIENDS???? ......2019!!
You ask me what they are ....and I tell you they are singular in a plural form ....to me....
_Mum Nd siblings_ ....they are my friend...obsession, hatred and other vices I seem not to find in them....

May be I expect too  much,...or may be I trust a lot ...but either way .....frnds don't pay#

Dey deceive yet embrace thee,they manipulate yet deny the result...they kill the you...yet even with their hand drip of ur blood....they smile and wave you with THE SAME....FRIENDS....!!

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ALLAH??

My supporter.... My fighter, my
Director.....
My shield

He is with me ....
And he did promise me twice in His Quran

With every hardship comes ease
Verily with every hardship come ease

My love life....???
Blessed!!

My life....??
Even me ion know what HE have design

But I await ...to be @that shore of possibilities...

Words convey not what I wish to tell...but iota pain what I ponder on

I am tired of All but yet I gat to move.

Innalillahi wa Inna ilaihi rajiun!
May your Dad's soul rest in peace.
May Allah grant y'all peace and happiness in your hearts, may Allah bring ease into your life and daily affairs, may All your dua be answered.
Allah knows why all this is happening do not give up. "We move." Your words.
May 2020 and the years to come be better. Ameen.

Drop your prayers please.

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Peace out!