Reckless

'I just wanna forget this whole day...'

JUSTINS POV

I needed to see Megan.

I got to her house and rushed to the door. I slipped the spare key out of the plant and opened the door.

I ran to the stairs. From the bottom of the stairs I could hear her sniffling and shuffle a little bit, I ran upstairs.

I ran into room and she was sitting on the edge of the bed. She looked a mess.

"Megan, please forgive me!" I said rushing over to her.

She looked up at me, "I don't wanna see you right now."

"Please just hear me out!" I said sitting on the ground next to her bed.

"Get out."

"Megan, please!"

• MEGANS POV

"Fine Justin because there are questions I need to be answered." I said looking at him with my eyebrow raised.

"Okay, I'll answer everything truthfully." He agreed.

"Why did you kiss her?" I asked, "Was I not good enough or something?"

"No no no! Megan she came onto me! I was taking her home she kissed me goodbye. It was completely unexpected and I wasn't aware it was going to happen at all. You are completely good enough! She doesn't not compare to you."

I wasn't going to take any sort of apology right now.

"If she doesn't compare how come you were going to hookup with her after I left?" I said trying to hold in my tears with deep breaths.

"I just said that to seem like a hard-ass to the guys. Trust me, I'm never going to "hook up" with her." He said putting quotes around hook up.

"Whathave you done that is worse than that?" I was scared for this answer. I had all my trust for Justin but now I don't know what I'm suppose do to with all that trust he lost.

He took a deep breath in and started to shake his head. "When we first started dating. You know how before we dated I was talking to Shelby?" I shook my head. "When we were dating I went over to Jess's house and she was there. Long story short when Jess left to go pick up pizza me and Shelby fucked one more time."

"How long were we dating for?!" My voice cracked.

"4 months..." He mumbled.

"WHAT THE FUCK JUSTIN!" I screamed. "Is that why Jess hated you so much?! Is that why you got in such a pissed mood then I asked you about why Jess hated you so much?!"

I started to cry, "Megan I swear that's it! I haven't done anything else. Please don't cry!" Justin said wiping away my tears.

At this point Jonah had returned to my house with the food.

"Get out, Bieber." Jonah said while coming in the door and setting the bags of McDonalds on my bed.

"Megan, please just call me. I don't wanna lose you." He said while getting up and walking to the door.

"I love you." He said making his way out of the door. I shook my head in disappointment looking at the floor.

Once Justin left I finally felt like talking.

"What did he want?" Jonah asked.

"He came over to appologize. I wanted answers and I asked him what were the other things he's dont that were "worse" than kissing the other girl, and I guess he cheated on me when we were dating for 4 months... " I said choking up.

"I'm sorry Megan, he's a DICK!" Jonah said setting my food next to me.

"I know, I know I just wanna forget this whole day..." I said starting to cry.

"After we're done eating get ready and we can go out and have fun, okay?" Jonah said tryin to cheer me up.

I shook my head starting to eat my food.

Jonah is honestly the truest friend I've ever had. He is willing to take me out, spend money, and burn the gas in his car, just to make me feel better.

I was finished with my food, so I threw my wrappers and stuff in the empty McDonalds bag.

"What should I wear?" I said getting up and walking over to my closet.

"Something casual but cute, like that white shirt and some ripped, blue jeans, with those." He said pointing at my black high top vans.

I nodded my head, grabbed the peices, and went to my bathroom.

I came out and modeled the clothes to Jonah.

"Nice!" Jonah smiled.

We decided to just walk downtown and buy random junk we didnt need, but wanted.

We were walking out of the store, and of course, with my luck, there's Justin. He looked at me in sencerity. We made eye contact, but it broke once Jonah put his arm around my waist to keep me walking, "Thanks."

"Let's get some icecream." I said pointing to the ice cream stand next to us.

"What do you want? I'll pay." Jonah questioned pulling out his wallet.

"Cotton candy." I answered. I still couldn't get Justin out of my head. I wanna see him, but I know I can't. What he did to me was wrong. I cant just be one of those girl that just goes back to a guy that breaks her heart. No, I refuse.

"2 cotton candy ice creams, in a bowl, please."

We were handed our ice creams, and we walked back in the direction we came from passing the store I saw Justin at. He was in there still. Sitting at a table with his head in his hands. I felt this huge rush of guilt come over me. I couldn't help but stare at him.

"He's in there." I said nudging Jonah.

"Megan, forget him. He's only going to hurt you more if you go back to him. I care to much for you to let you do that." He said stopping me.

The sad thing is is that he is right. He's only going to hurt me more if I go back to him. "Yeah. Yeah, you're right!" I said rubbing my forehead while nodding my head.

I shed a single tear, knowing that the love of my life is feet away from me and I have to resist myself from talking to him.

"Megan, trust me I've been in your shoes before. I know how this feels. It's best for you to just walk away." He said grabbing my waist again and leading me away from the store.

*

It's later in the night, and we're still walking downtown.

We've passed by Justin a couple more times tonight. He was with his friends now. I'm craving to talk to him, to hear his voice, to hear him say my name, but if I even mention it to Jonah he talks me out of it.

I'm aching to see him again. I wanna pass by him, look at him and make it seem like we're still together and none of this happened, but it did, it happened, and there's nothing i can do about that.

This day has consisted of me crying on and off, and wanting meal, after meal, after meal.

"I'm going to use the restroom real quick, stay here." Jonah said walking into a fast food place. I shook my head.

I waited outside of the fast food place wanting fresh air.

I could see across the street Justin and his friends walking on the sidewalk he seemed as gloomed as I was. He wasnt really walking in the group, he was kind of trailing behind.

Here is my only opprotunity to talk to Justin.

I got up. Shit, what the fuck am I about to do? I started to run across the street not caring if a car was coming.

"Justin!" I yelled.

He turned around with a suprised expression on his face.