Monsta [book 3]

04

santana's point of view

The mixture of orange, black and blue never looked so pretty. Watching the sunset on the beach was one of the things I've always wanted to do and now look.

A mug appears in front of my face startling me half to death. I look up and Jay smiles at me, I take the cup before thanking him. He sits down next to me with his cup as well.

I take a sip of the drink and smile.

Me: Hot chocolate on the beach should be some type of crime but this is delicious.

He smiles proudly.

Jay: I've always been known as the hot-cocoa master of the group.
Me: Is that a thing?
Jay: It should be.

We both laugh.

Jay: So, are you going to tell me what's got you so down?
Me: Down? I'm not down?
Jay: You're a counselor I'm sure you know the signs before anyone else.
Me: I never diagnose myself.

He looks at me unamused.

Jay: You've been avoiding everyone all day, you've barely eaten anything not to mention you've been sitting in this spot for hours.
Me: You sound like a stalker.

I sigh, now I'm using humor to cope. I'm Hyungwoning.

Me: I just have a lot on my mind.
Jay: That's gross, we're on vacation.
Me: I know, that's why I'm trying not to think about it but it's hard not to.
Jay: Relationship issues? If you want I'll beat him up. Unless it's Shownu or Wonho, they're built. Also Changkyun is a nutjob so not him either, Jooheon is a little crazy too.

I laugh before shaking my head.

Me: It's nothing like that. It's just am I dumb for thinking this whole thing could work?
Jay: You're not the only one who thought it could work, there's seven other guys in there who agreed.

I nod.

Me: But what if they're having doubts?
Jay: Are you having doubts?
Me: No, I mean, I don't know.
Jay: You guys fell in love for a reason. Marriages have moments like this too, when they go through hard times they often forget the "til death do us part" or is it does us part?

He mumbles the part over and over while I watch in pure amusement.

Jay: Anyways, for better or for worse. You decided to date those seven morons because you love them and they make you happy. They decided their love for you was so much they'd share you. Share your body, your love, your admiration, everything. And I think that's beautiful.

I smile as my eyes water a little.

Me: So what should I do?
Jay: Couples retreat right? Show them why you guys picked each other.

That's a good idea.

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