Monsta [book 3]

011

santana's point of view

Taeyun avoids my eyes once the question slips out. I frown, whenever I ask about a bond or relationship with any of these guys they all get weird and antsy before changing the subject.

Me: If I'm going to remember anything don't I deserve to know the entire truth?

He sighs before giving me a sad smile.

Taeyun: You're absolutely right but it's not my truth to tell.
Me: Then who should I talk to?
Taeyun: Monsta-x.
Me: All of them?

He nods his head.

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Later that day I end up catching all seven members in the kitchen at once. They all greet me with smiles and sad eyes, once they notice the permanent scowl on my face they frown.

Kihyun: What's wrong?
Me: I feel like I'm being lied to.
Changkyun: About?
Me: My boyfriend.

Silence.

See? This is what I'm talking about. I wouldn't be so caught up on this if they wouldn't act like this. Not to mention my heart does this annoying thing whenever any of them does anything.

I thought I had a crush on Wonho, and then Shownu happened. Soon after Minhyuk and Kihyun appeared. Hyungwon, Jooheon and Changkyun got me too.

So now I'm crushing on all seven of them but one person can't possibly love seven people.

Wonho: We told you it's complicated.
Me: Everyone keeps saying that but I don't see how.

Hyungwon sighs.

Hyungwon: If we tell you there's a chance you might be apprehensive.
Me: About what?

Changkyun lets out an annoyed sigh.

Changkyun: We all date okay? We're all your boyfriend, we all kiss you, fuck you and cuddle you okay?

_

"You know you'll be fucking me soon so stop being so scary around me."

I choked on my own spit.

"E-excuse me?"
"You heard me."

_

What was that memory?

Is shake my head deciding not to dwell on it too much. My mind isn't processing what he just told me either.

Kihyun: There could've been a better way to explain.
Changkyun: Well no one did it.

Shownu pinches the younger boy's ear and he whines. A smile appears on my face at the sound.

Me: So you're saying we all date? Like you guys with each other too?

They all say 'NO'

Jooheon: You're our girlfriend, it's been that way for years now.
Me: But you guys are idols, isn't the world turned off by that?

Minhyuk chuckles uneasily.

Minhyuk: No one knows except us and infinity.
Me: So it's a secret?
Wonho: For the time being yes.

I scratch my head.

Me: But what about marriage and kids?

They all become quiet. Minhyuk smiles before shaking his head.

Minhyuk: We can always get a puppy.

Cute.

Me: How did this happen?
Shownu: Well...

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Once he wraps up the story I stare at them in disbelief. A sex slave? Well a pleaser, as they so eloquently put it.

I must've been in a tough spot in life then. Stripping could've been an option but hey, this is cool too I guess.

Me: So Infinity are our friends now?
Jooheon: Associates.
Me: They're really nice though.
Changkyun: They're assholes.

"HEY! WE HEARD THAT!"

"Hyung shut up they're going to know we're listening."

I chuckle before shaking my head.

Me: How many more days do we have left on vacation?
Shownu: I think three.
Me: Well within' these three days I need to know why I fell for you in the first place.

I look at each boy and my heart does the thing.

Obviously I was happy with them before so I'd like to feel that again.

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how was your christmas? did y'all get anything gooood?