Time will tell | VKOOK [C]

Chapter 41

Taehyung pov

"I love you Taehyung."

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"I promise you Taehyung, we'll always be together."

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"please don't cry baby. I'm with you and I'll love you forever. I'll never leave you, I promise."

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"I love you Tae, so so much."

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"words bitch!"

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"you're so unwanted by everyone around you!"

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At the moment, I was so sad. Sad wasn't the right word. Why? Why couldn't my heart listen to me?

Why did it have to fall for the college's fuck boy?

Why did I have to fall in love with him?

I wasn't supposed to fall for anyone else.  If only I had followed my list when I got divorced with Bogum, none of these would have happened.

But how could I have resisted the feeling when he was being him? Being flirty, cute, adorable and a gentleman in overall.

I didn't even know if he loved me. He could just want to use me like Bogum did. I don't want that.

I don't want to be a toy anymore. I don't want to be separated from life.

When did I even begin to fall for him? Why didn't I notice? Why didn't I notice that all this things were pointing to love?

I know what I had with Bogum was some stupid teenage infatuation but is there also an adult infatuation?

Aish! I don't know.

I turned on my bed. These thoughts were making me run mad. I was tired. I was tired of thinking this much. If only someone could understand me.

Jungkook did understand me. A lot. He put up with my annoying ass attitude. Maybe he really did like me.

But that was exactly what Bogum did. He put up with me since we were children.

I can't believe Bogum did all of that to me even if we grew up together. Like I told Jimin, if someone I grew up with could do such a thing to me, what would someone I didn't know do?

Maybe I even deserved it.

I wonder how Jimin's relationship with Hobi hyung and Yoongi hyung is going.

But what if Jungkook becomes like Bogum. What if he became abusive?

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"let him love you. Don't resist it anymore. You can't just resist anyone who wants to be with you because of something that happened in the past."

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But about what Songmin said. What do I do?

I sighed and sat up on my bed.

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Jeon Jungkook. You have only one chance.

I hugged my pillow to my chest after my decision. I'll give you just a chance. If you mess up, forget me.

I'll check if he'll come around tomorrow.

I noticed my mind became at rest. So all of these were what was making me sleepless?

My eyes became droopy and I laid on my bed. I let myself fall asleep with a little smile on my face.

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Hi!

So...

This was a filler?

Yeah I know.

He has opened up his heart!

Opened up his heart!

Opened up his heart!

Taehyung has opened up his heart!

Opened up his heart today!

We're all so happy!

So very happy!

Taehyung is gonna date Jungkook!

I am so happy so very happy!

Taehyung is gonna date Jungkook!!

Bai!

'peace out💟