Similar Differences (Fassavoy)

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(Trigger warning: suicide attempts. Also I struggled with where I was going with this so I hope it's good)

This has to be some sort of sick joke, Michael thought as he struggled to get himself to sleep. He wanted this, he wanted James and now when he had the chance, he did nothing.

Why couldn't James be the mind reader? He plays Charles, it should have been him. Charles, you bastard you better be listening.

"Oh I have been. It was a mixup, I gave mine to the wrong guy but that doesn't matter. I'm here because I need you to know about the Sentinals."
Trust me I think I know everything after playing Erik.
"No you don't. They're getting closer to finding me and Erik. That's why I have the plan to get you guys here and to help us in a different way..."
For fuck sake, Charles. We're just humans. This has to be all a dream. Maybe I'm in a coma and this is my imagination.
"If you're not going to listen, then you're on your own. If one of us dies, expect yourself to be filled with constant pain. Goodbye Michael."

James woke up and looked at Michael straight away. He was a sweaty mess. His sobs were silent but he knew something was happening due to his strange breathing. Why have we been panicky like this?

"Michael, what's going on? Come on, I need you to be okay."
"There's...too many...things to...keep up with...there's you and then Charles and I don't want to do this!"
"Michael what do you mean me?"

He took a deep breath, "I was awake last night. When you kissed me..." It was James' turn to panic again. How could he have been awake when he showed his love to him?

"I didn't do anything! T-that wasn't me. I'm not gay or anything!"
"James, I know it was you, don't do this."
"I can't do this anymore. I'm done with you, Michael. I never want to see you again. Fuck you."

He stormed out in a rage and left Michael alone and scared. The unexpectedness of this moment made him feel broken and alone. He thought he was falling in love. He broke into tears and became motionless.

On the other side of the trailer, James was holding back all tears. He was waiting until he was alone. He went to his own trailer and screamed out until he couldn't breathe.

Why can't I just be normal again and not be riddled with anxiety? I've ruined the best thing to happen to me, we could have just had a conversation but I'm too fucking stupid.

After finally calming down, he felt so guilty and knew he wanted to see Michael again. He couldn't have a bad relationship with someone he has to play friends with.

He knocked once again on the door for Michael's trailer. Nothing. He shouted, "Michael? I want to talk to you. Please..." He still heard nothing. James tried the handle and it opened. Michael wouldn't leave it unlocked.

He pushed it open and screamed. Michael was laid on the floor, surrounded by different colours and sizes of pills. James had gone pale at the sight and he began screaming out, "CALL AN AMBULANCE! Michael, please you can't die on me..."

His friend didn't move and his breathing was so slow, heart was barely beating. It panicked James more than he already was as he didn't want the guy he was in love with to die.

An ambulance soon arrived and put him into the vehicle. James hopped in straight away and held his hand. He whispered through tears, "I love you so much Michael and I need you to be okay..."

A voice coughed out, "I love you too..."