I'M FINE || BTS fanfic (Save me sequel) {Completed}✅

I'm fine

Taehyung's pov

Alarm goes off*

I hate it...I really hate it...the reality I strucked into..the reality where she is no more... everyday I wake up,dress up and communicate with others and sleep.. everything is there..but where is she?..the only thing I want?..where is she?...

What I'm actually living for? Why I'm actually living for??..Is it okay for me to living..without her?..it's an absolute No.. but I have to.. because of her.. because she asked me to.. because she told me that I'm her witness of existence..

It's cold..cold as ice...how much I tried,everything still stayed cold as ever,without her...why?... because Her warmth is the only thing can change this coldness..I miss her..

But I know she can never come..her last words still kept ringing in my mind..every now and then..if she know this gonna be this painful...why did she leave then??..why did she left me in this pain..all alone by myself??...

Will I every have the chance to touch her like I did before...or kiss her like I did before??.. hopeless wish..

Yeah  I'm fine..this is my answer who ever asks me,"how I'm doing?"

I badly wanted to scream that I'm not okay..god damn I'm not fine!!.. without her...but I can't do it right?..

This feeling of emptiness without her killing me slowly..like a poison...I wish this process is faster..

My every morning starts by waking up in her room at her bed...

After these years...her everything stays as it used to be..her wardrobe..her bed..her books and laptop...her room and her house..where she enjoyed,smiled,cried... importantly her intoxicating scent..

I bought this house.. because rest of BTS and Shuchi along with others moved to individual villas in other side of UN village..

But I was stubborn on not giving up this house..where she lived.. especially this room which still has her scent..

"Good morning Sara", I smiled weekly at her huge portrait placed on the wall toward me,while sitting up at her bed..

As ever as beautiful...a flower crown on her head having most sweetest smile of her..while squinting her eyes like a crescent moon...

I breath in to fill her scent in my lungs from the room once she lived.. snuggling in the bedsheets she used to snuggle..

I buried my face in the sheets..

"I still miss you Sara..still.. I'm tired.. I'm tired..really...tired of trying to forget you..", tears started to wet the bed sheets..

Though everyone one tired to make me get over Sara..but all in vain..how could I forget..the one I dearly loved..the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life..the one who only can give the warmth I need..

No one could have thought..we been only together for merely a month..but after this 2 years of her non existence in my life..I still can't get over from her..her memories...

Too much of love can kill you daily...I'm dying every single second of this life..is there any end to it?..

I walked towards the window and pulled the curtain away to see the Seoul was all coloured by Autumn tress..

"I really love fall season..it's so beautiful...", her voice crossed my mind..

"Yes...just like you", I mumbled..while walking to take a shower..

3rd person's pov

Jimin bragged into the house were Taehyung stays,all this time when ever he is so down..