I CARE

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Beyonce POV

"You got this Beyonce," I chanted those words as I looked myself in the full view mirror getting myself ready for dinner. I asked for Amelia to come and join us for dinner. I wonder if things are gonna change for the best or worst after tonight? Let's just hope for the best.

"Beyonce. Grandma T said that dinner is ready so come down," I heard Bennett as he made a quick stop by my room.

"Imma be down in a second," I said taking one last glance at myself before going downstairs to join the others. I said a silent prayer as I jogged downstairs.

***

"Hello? Earth to Beyonce," I heard Solange say from across the dinner table. She was waving her hands as she snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?" I said looking at her.

"I asked you to pass me the salt two minutes ago," I nodded as I gave her the salt.

"Are feeling OK sweetie? You've been awfully quiet ever since we started eating. What's wrong?" My mom asked putting her fork and knife down.

"I'm just not that hungry that's all," I said lowly as I used my fork to play with the vegetables on my plate. I felt my stomach turn a bit. The food in my stomach was slowly coming up. I immediately took my glass of water and drank all of my water but that didn't help. I then rushed upstairs and headed for my bathroom. I opened the toilet lid and I barfed my insides out. When I felt like there was nothing left I wiped my mouth and gurgled with some mouth wash. I got out and tossed myself on my bed resting on my back.

"You still feeling sick babe?" I heard Michael as he sat on my bed.

"Oh wow. What gave it away?" I said sarcastically. I haven't been feeling like myself for the past couple of days. I have been puking like crazy, I bet it was probably because I'm so nervous about disclosing the truth.

"Let's go downstairs Bey," Michael said as he pulled me up. We finally entered the dining room and all eyes were on us.

"Mom, Solange can you guys please excuse us for a second," I said lowly. To my surprise they did as I asked. I guess Amelia told them before they came what I was about to do. "Bennett, baby boo. Can you please follow us to the living room." I watch as Bennett gets more confused and followed my orders. We went to sit on the three seated couch while Bennett made himself comfortable on Jay's recliner.

"Am I in trouble?" Bennett asked with fear evident in his voice.

"No baby you are not," Amelia said reassuring him.

"Then why y'all sitting like I'm about to get interrogated or something?" He said chuckling nervously.

"You do remember when Mrs Robinson said she was getting some things in order?" I finally said something. Bennett nodded. "Good then. We wanted to get the legal papers ready," I continued.

"What legal papers?" He answered with a raised eyebrow. I could obviously tell from his facial expression that he was just baffled. "I know you gonna have questions after this and probably hate us-"

"Why would I hate you guys? I love y'all," he interjected.

If only he knew what I was gonna tell him will make him rethink his statement. A part of me feels like not telling him while a other part of me feels like going ahead and tell Bennett.

I took a deep breath, "Amelia went to do something I was afraid of doing this entire time because I was scared and emotionally unstable," I said with tears streaming down my face. Bennett came over and gave me a tight hug.

"Its aight Beyonce. We all get scared. Take me for an example. I'm afraid of the dark and I'm still not emotionally ready to face that fear," he said as he kissed my forehead and went back to sit on the recliner.

"Bennett, I'm... I'm your biological mother," I said lowly and busy fidgeting with my fingers.

I saw Bennett clench his fists and jaw,"You aren't my biological mother," he said through gritted teeth. "STOP PLAYING WITH ME BEYONCE!" He shouted as he stood up.

I wish I was just joking but I'm not, "Its true. Bennett," I said with watery eyes.

"Well then, prove it. Prove that you are my mother," he said pacing up and down in front of us.

"Your dad's name was Frederick Williams and has been a drug dealer ever since he was very young. We were high school sweet hearts and continued dating up until college where we finally broke up. I met Shawn and that's when I discovered that I was pregnant with you. By then my music career was kicking off. I told my mom, she was obviously mad but helped me throughout my pregnancy. I finally told your dad and to my surprise he agreed to help me raise you. Somewhere along my pregnancy Frederick and I got back together but months after you were born we broke up but still kept in touch. Shawn and I started dating and that's when he brought this house for us," I paused waiting for Bennett to say something but he kept quiet. "Whenever Shawn was away on business your dad would come with you to sleepover for a couple of days. We would play and Solange and you had this weird secret handshake none of us knew and she called you sweet thang. I used to call you baby boo. All was well until your dad said that you deserve a good home and that I must tell Shawn that I have a child. I refused and that's when your dad took you away and I never saw you again. I tried to contact his cousin, Amelia but she didn't know about his whereabouts. Up until seven years ago when you ended up on her doorstep. I asked her to keep you so that no one will adopt you." I finally ended.

"You knew," he said looking at Amelia with watery eyes. "You knew but you didn't tell me. You knew how much I wanted to know about my biological mother but you kept quiet," he said lowly as he sank to the ground and was on his knees. "You lied to me Mrs Robinson. Why did you lie to me for so long?" He said bursting into tears. "Why did you lie Mrs Robinson?" He said getting up wiping his tears with the back of his hand. The room was silent after that, you could hear a needle fall. Bennett still had his eyes glued on Amelia, "ANSWER ME!" He shouted on top of his lungs as he stared at Amelia.

"Bennett, its me you should be mad at," I said as I stood up.

"DON'T COME NEAR ME! I HATE YOU!" He said as he stormed out and headed upstairs to his room.

The truth always comes out in the end. I will not stop fighting until I get back my son back. I wanna do things right this time. The one thing I will always regret is choosing Shawn over Frederick but that's fine with me. That's what mistakes are for, so that you can learn from them and do better in the future.