Gone missing (a Jarlo fanfic)

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"Arlo you coming to school?" John asks peaking into the room while eating a banana. I turn around from where I was changing and hold my shirt over my chest. "Yeah... I might leave though" I mumble half heartedly. After I woke up in Johns arms this morning I had the best feeling in my chest and I felt like I would explode with happiness, something that I rarely feel, as mother told my siblings and I that showing emotion is showing weakness. However it seems life isn't on my side as that feeling lasted about 3 seconds, if that, replaced by the memory of Sera kissing Johns cheek. Since then my minds been wondering off.
"Well I'm going out with some friends after school if you want to meet them" John says, his voice seems a lot closer than before. I look up from the ground, which I didn't even relise I was staring at and am meet with the sight of his incredibly toned chest. I feel my face heating up and I look away. "Are you ok?" He asks reaching out to me. I pull back and look into his eyes, the eyes that remind me so much of gold. "It's just last night... you cuddled me when I had a nightmare and... well I saw you kiss sera. Or her kiss your cheek or whatever but... what... sorry I don't know what I'm saying" I stumble, it's rare for me to talk this much to anyone but the royals. "Heh..." he laughs slightly pulling his hand back to wipe his eyes of the crusted sleep that still remains there. "Sera likes me and I know that but... She knows I'm gay so..."
"Your gay?" I ask the blush on my cheeks now covering my whole face with a deep red hue. "Would that change your opinion of me?" He asks, walking closer to me, until my naked back hits the cold wall. I shake my head quickly. His pink lips curl in a smile as his hand slowly comes to rest against the wall next to my head. I drop my shirt in surprise and use my now free hands to cover my blushing face. "John... stop..." I say, trying to use the stren voice I use at school but the request comes out as a shakey whisper. "I get the feeling you don't want me to" he laughs, Leaning in. I feel like I could cry, I want so badly to let him kiss me but I can't. I have a betrothed. "John... mum is getting me to marry someone I can't do this I can't hurt you"
"I will get what I want one way or another I don't care who I hurt or how many people I hurt I will love you" John grabs my chin "and I know you want that to... so run away... I know you don't want to live there"

Hey hey hey! So I'm going to change the plot of this story because I want it to go in a different way so I'll update the summary! Happy 2020! Life in Australia has been hard and my family and I have been giving food and bottles of water to the firefighters for a while now and helping those who lost there homes to fire. Personally the fires aren't to close to me but we are all affected so I hope that everything gets better. Praying for Australia and happy new year.