The World As We Know It~ Poetry and Advice for Life

Constellation

The days go by.

The words don't all get said.

You're an asshole,

But I still join you at our most vulnerable.

I still want to know that you're okay.

I want to see you get better.

 I want you to be happy with yourself.

I want to see you getting stable.

I want all of these things for you.

But you?

You lured me into a false sense of ease.

I fell into a trap.

You say what I want to hear.

You lure me with your words,

And make it seem like it's going to be okay.

Maybe we did meet for a reason.

You called it destiny.

I could agree,

But maybe destiny had a different plan.

Maybe this is just another star in a bigger constellation.

You are a bump in the road that I have to pass to get to my destination.

You show me what I need.

Teach me how to get there.

Express the dangers that my path will throw at me.

I'll learn from you.

I'll live without you.

I'll hold on for now,

But soon It'll just be you,

And it'll just be me.

You say the things I need.

You also say the things that hurt the most.

You've gotten in my head,

Making your way to my heart.

That's where I draw the line.

Get the fuck out with that shit.

I can replay your cards.

Insecure, co-dependent, jealous.

And that is final. 

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January 5th, 2020 at 11:30 PM

It's been a rough day and a certain sociopath in my life is really pushing the limit recently.