A Look Inside

9/24/1978

12:22pm
It's Sunday, which means the end of the weekend. It's been about a week or so since I last wrote in here. I can happily say that I got to talk to Andy. I almost cried when I did. On Friday I washed dads car for him, so he gave me $20. I used some of it to buy cigarettes, and stashed the rest away in what I didn't turn into dimes. I only got to talk to him for 30 minutes. The pay phones are 10 cents per ten minutes so it wasn't too bad. I want to save the $16.18 I have left after the call and cigarettes, so I can call him again, and hopefully I run into a kid at school who sells pot. It's New York so the prices might be high, so it might not even be worth it, who knows. Andy sounded excited to hear from me, which was nice. He told me that him and his mom didn't really know what to do with themselves while I was gone. He told me that he and Lisa have been hanging out a lot. I couldn't really find time to care about Lisa honestly, but he sounded happy about it. I just hope she's good to him. He asked me about school and I told him about Billy. I didn't know what to say when he asked if Billy was a friend because I am still unsure. I didn't want to talk about Lisa or Billy though, but I guess that's hard to avoid when it's new places and new people. It was good to hear from Andy again and next time I talk to him I want to see if we can talk to our folks about gathering some money together to get Andy here. (I'm sure dad can spare a few dollars.) I did find out the name of the Auburn haired girl-not that I really care but her name is Rachel Bonnen. She has Geometry with Billy. Good news is Billy did come back on Monday, he said he got sick and that's why he didn't come. He was wearing a black jacket this time. I didn't think much of it I guess but it was a little odd not seeing him in the flannels he wears.  I think he's starting to warm up to me, he invited me to go to the arcade with him and his sister Janice. She's a 9th grader and honestly she's pretty damn annoying. All she ever talks about is John Travolta and the latest fashion. I mean that's what's important to her I guess so I won't try to shame her, but honestly I just can't bring myself to give a fuck about any of that.  But I told him I'd go because I think it would be worth making at least one new friend, even if he's kind of sketchy. I could also try getting along with Janice and seeing if we have any common interests, it wouldn't kill me to be nice to her. I just hope Billy doesn't get the wrong idea and beat my ass.
Oh before I go my birthday is in two weeks and two days. I hope mom gets me that new Wonder Woman issue I told her about. Crossing my fingers.

8:45pm
Well I went to the arcade and met up with Billy, but he said Janice had ditched to go see her friend Natalie. There wasn't much to do there since most of the games were taken up by some of the much younger kids. We ended up just going behind the building and he pulled out a joint. Man was I happy to smoke again after a while. After we finished smoking I was pretty high, Billy ended up walking me home because he said he didn't want me to get stopped by the cops and rat him out or something. It was weird because I never really noticed before but he walks with his head hung kinda low. He always looks grumpy. We didn't really talk much, I didn't want to be too intrusive but I've been sitting with this guy since day one of me starting school here and I barely know anything about him other than his name and the clothes he usually wears. Well that and I know about his crush on Gina Davis. A girl in his grade who is also kind of a loner. She has long black hair that reaches down to the middle of her back, she usually wears it in braids and she wears a lot of denim jeans and band shirts. I think he likes her because he thinks she's cool. We don't talk about it much because he doesn't like to. It's the only time he doesn't look so grumpy though. I decided to ask him what his folks were like and he just muttered a "okay". He's kind of a weird guy but he's quiet like me. I think that's why he allows me to hang out with him. Well I guess if I make him feel normal and not alone then I'm happy to help. After all I did only start hanging out with him because of his bruiting nature. I don't think I really described what he looks like but he has chocolate brown hair and hazel green eyes. He stands maybe two inches taller than me. After he dropped me off at home I had to try to act normal in front of the folks, mom made spaghetti for dinner tonight, which I was happy to devour. Dad asked how everything went and I told him things were fine. I don't think he suspected that I was high, but I hope not because I know I'll get an ear full and honestly I just don't want to deal with him. He's excited for me to turn 17, he wants to try to get me an internship for his boss. I hate that word especially because it's not a big corporation, and I already can't stand capitalist fuck faces. But if it gets me some money for a car, I'll take it. I want to move back to Oregon when I turn 18. I wish I could bring mom with me, she'd be so happy to be reunited with aunt Betty. Speaking of that, the phone bill comes at the end of the week. Even though I'm not religious like you and dad, I'll pray for you. If dad lays a hand on you over that, I won't have a problem hitting him back this time.

I love you mom.

Always been my superhero.