emotions ~ poem collection

confused

I hate you, you fucking piss me off
you act like a stranger to me, keep us a secret
I'm lying to my friends for you, but you just blank me in return
but I can't stop coming back to you, even though you hurt me
I even showed you my scars that I caused myself
I told you of my trauma and my darkest secrets
and you kissed my forehead and said that you'll be there for me
but as soon as you left you broke that promise

now, I watch as you live on
not a care, not a thought for how I must be feeling
we can't keep doing this
can't keep loving and hating you at the same time
it fucks with my head, sends me crazy
I can't think straight, I wish death upon myself
but it's all because of how you are
There's a side to you I love and miss, but I only see the side I hate

You confuse me, you really do
on a Monday afternoon when we are alone
it's a time where we talk, act like a couple
but an hour after I feel like I spent time with a whole 'nother person
I'm so fucking confused by you, do you like me or not?
Cos if you do, then show it
If you don't, then leave me for good