Teach me how to trust again

Do I get a say?

Here is the next part of Teach me to trust again. Hope you like it~Brooke

Alex’s point of view

I was sitting in Gia’s hospital room with some of my friends from school. I already knew some of them didn’t really understand what I was doing in the hospital in a girls room that I had never mentioned before, and I mean why would I she never tried to find me, or get an address of where we were going but looking back I think dad never tried to bring her and Maria with us. I had sent Maria home not even half hour ago and that was a fight. I have to say she was very worried about her sister and I would be too if someone were to tell me what exactly was going on. When dad came in and asked to speak to me I wasn’t surprised I mean this was his job he was a doctor and he insisted on taking Gias’ case. I followed him out into the hall and got a shocking surprise and when I walked back into the room Gia was awake but asking where Mar was. I then sent everyone home so that I could talk with her alone as I told dad I would and maybe I could get answers that he couldn’t.

“Why didn’t you tell us about the cancer?” I couldn’t wait to hear this, what I hear surprised me. She didn’t want to be treated differently no wonder all she did was act like a normal person but when we were shopping I saw that she bought cheaper cloths and not as much as everyone else.

“Well he is your dad why wouldn’t you want him to know? And you mean that you’ve been battling it by yourself it for how long now?” I didn’t like where this conversation was going but I had to know, she is my sister and I love her no matter how unhealthy or healthy she is.

“Protect her from what exactly?” If I was worried before I am more so now than ever I really want to push her to answer but I can already see the tears, I won’t push her today but one day soon I will push her.

Giannas

I want out of the hospital and I know how to get out before Monday when school starts. Follow the rules that are harder than it may seem but I want out so I will. Rule number 1, take all medications with no complaining, number 2 stay in bed unless you must go to the washroom, number 3 don’t back talk the doctor( my dad), number 4 sleep lots, number 5 always ask people to leave after half hour so that I can rest. Sounds easy right? Wrong I want to get up and move I know that my cancer is back my dad told me that but they just want to make sure that I am somewhat healthy before school next week. I figure after spending so much time in a hospital growing up I would be used to the bed and the lights but im not.. no one visits me except for Alex and Mar and that’s it other than rounds when dad comes in I’m by myself.

“Hey Gianna, how you feeling today?” wait that’s Adrian or is it Reace I can never tell them apart even with the two being 5 years apart. I’m sure I will soon but for now I’m just confused on whom they are.

“I’m ok, are you Reace or Adrian I always get mixed up with you two.”

“I am Adrian you might not remember me from when you were younger but most nights you would sneak into mine and Alex’s room and sleep with one of us.” I remember doing that I guess nightmares had started when I was young and never really stopped if anything they just got worse and worse, till the point of no return.

“I remember doing that what I can’t believe is that you remember that.”

“Ya? I bet you don’t remember always being annoyingly attached to Alex when we were growing up.”

“I remember believe me, I actually miss you all but I never got letters or anything from any of you so I thought that you all had forgotten about me. Especially dad.”

“I could never forget about you, you were such a tom boy that it always surprised me when you would say your favorite color was pink. It didn’t fit. And truth be told I don’t think dad ever stopped thinking about his “daddy’s girl” or “baby girl” we all missed you” I highly dough that but I guess when all you remember about you dad is him taking all your siblings for the most part and leaving it’s hard to believe anything.

“Ok if you say so.  How are you?”

“Worried.”

“About what?”

“You of course, Alex told me about the cancer and that you felt a need to protect Maria. I just don’t think that’s a good combination for a girl of your age.” Not this again, I’m not going to cave in and tell them why I have to protect her or shell end up just like me.

“I’m fine, used to it now it is second nature and has been since I was 9 or 10. What else did he tell you?”

“He’s worried to you know that the stress of it all isn’t helping you get healthy again, I got to say I agree with him on that one.”

“Maybe I don’t want to be healthy has anyone thought that maybe I’m ok with dying?” yah maybe that’s what I want now that I think about it, it would be so much better than always ending up in a hospital and I could play sports. Wait no I would be dead so no sports but no pain either.

“You can’t mean that can you?”

“I don’t know; now leave me alone I want out of this place as soon as I can. I want to go to school on Monday as well.”

“Ok love you, keep that head up!”

Adrian’s point of view(only going to do his a few times)

I went to visit my sister in the hospital today apparently not everyone has yet and that included me. I know I’m her brother and all but the more I think about it the less I feel like I am. I know nothing about her anymore she used to be such a tom boy is she still? And if she is what sports can she play with the cancer and all? I didn’t expect to learn that she wants to die that was for sure; maybe she doesn’t but just told me she does. I have to let dad and Alex know so that they can keep a watch on her. She isn’t in a good place if the fact that she is okay with dying just rolled off her tongue like that in a practically normal conversation. I think school would be a good thing for her a sense of normality in her life when everything and I mean everything has gone so downhill and gotten so confusing to those two girls. I just hope that I can save both of them from doing something crazy. Oh and then the reason that she so expertly avoided my question on why she has to protect her sister comes to mind and the age that it all started at. I’m worried for the both of them.

If you have any qestions on Adrian and his idea on what his sister is going through the next couple chapters will not answer them!!! But we will get some more information on why Gianna wants to go back to school again hehe,  new characters are going to show up. Pleas if you like this add, vote, comment, fan but only if you want I just want to see how many people like my story so far... Bye~Brooke