Teach me how to trust again

Just a normal night at home(part 1)

Alex’s view

Yes so I’m not really sure how it came about but Zack seems to really like my sister, but the thing is I haven’t heard her even talk to anyone quite yet so how Zack is getting her to talk is surprising as she rarely even talks at home. How he does it is so crazy I mean he’s the jock who just happens to be incredibly smart.  Whatever we turn 16 in a few days and as always I will have an amazing party I just hope Gia likes dressing up and partying, but I highly dough that.

I know my dad would be disappointed in me for not talking to Gia at school but I’m not sure that he fully understands who she is yet. I never heard her voice for almost 2 weeks and when I did it was only because of something that a certain friend of mine asked her. You see Zack was at our house just like any other day when Gia came down to the games room in her fuzzy pajamas that I have since learnt she only wears if it is a bad day and her cancer is making her feel bad. Any who she came in and sat down beside me, sure we used to be close but then I slowly realized that we are not the same people that we were when we were little and had no problems, health or otherwise. She came down pulled a blanket up to her chin and not even 5 minutes latter was running to the bathroom. I have to admit that I was worried about her I was still her big brother and I had just learned that she has had cancer for a really long time; my reaction was to run after her to hold her hair. She had been throwing up a lot lately and dad had told all us kids that it would be normal for the next little bit as she was getting regular treatments now. I know that even Zack has yet to find out about her cancer even with her changing her wigs (wait I’m not supposed to know that) once a week. I miss Gianna and her carefreeness, but I have noticed that Maria more than makes up for it. I just hope that that Gianna gets better, back to my story… as I was saying I held her hair and once she was finished I grabbed the mouth wash and carried her back to the couch she is not heavy it’s just that I thought she would be more comfortable down here in case anything happens.

She had fallen asleep and Zack asked me what was wrong with her, I didn’t feel like telling him she has cancer that is her’s to tell unless something extremely bad happens when she is at school then news will get out and I don’t want him to be the last to know. I simply told him that she is really sick and will hopefully be better by Monday. He seemed quite taken with her and protective, it felt good that maybe one day it will work out for him and Gianna to have a chance together she could use a guy like him and he could use a girl like her.

When Gianna woke up about 2 hours later we had just finished watching Jack ass. I could feel her starting to wake up as her head was on my legs to make it the comfiest for both of us.

“Hey little sis, how are you feeling?”  When she didn’t answer I could tell that something was either wrong or she just didn’t want to talk like normal. When I looked down at her all I saw were tears flowing down her face they may have been silent but I could still see them.

“Zack would you give us a moment I need to find out what’s wrong with her and she isn’t talking down here so I am going to take her up to my room. I should be back down soon”

I took my time carrying my sobbing sister up the stairs and to my room only for her to run out calling for Mia, why I still don’t understand. It took a good half hour to calm her down when I said that Mira was with her friends and should be back in the morning she was staying at one of her girlfriend’s house. I wonder why she was crying and why she is so protective of her sister.

Zack point of view

Something was wrong with Gianna I could tell as soon as she came down the stairs she looked upset and almost green. I was right not even 5 minutes had passed since she came down and she was already running to the bathroom, a look of shear panic crossed Alex’s face before he ran after her. I understand him being a good big brother to her but that look held something else in it I think it was more worry than anything else. Gianna had missed the last 2 days of school this week and when I asked Alex about it he said that she just needed some time. Time for what I never got an answer for. When Alex came back carrying his sister that I knew it was something serious, I had never seen him show this much compassion for anyone even if she is his twin it would only go so far. I want answers but maybe just maybe I should get them from Gianna I really care about her and if I can help I want to, how I’m not sure but I will help eventually.

Gianna’s View

Some people might think that it is weird that I don’t talk except to Zack but that’s only during class. He is always at my house since him and Alex are friends, but I don’t pay that much attention to him. He’s just my brother’s friend. So how I ended up going to the basement and the fact that I knew Zack and Alex were down there I was already setting myself up for a uncomfortable evening and the fact that I sat quite close to Alex was surprising. Me getting up and running to the bathroom was not uncommon was it still scary to think that I am getting treatments yes. I want to give up on this whole cancer thing but I can’t I have to protect Mar and how can I do that if I’m gone? I heard Alex ask how I was feeling and all I can say is I have no idea. I miss mum, I miss Mar this is not our relationship anymore I miss our girl nights at home.

“Mar, Mar! Where’s Mar? “That may have been a little harsh but she is the only one I want to talk to.

“She’s spending the night with a few of her girlfriends, what’s wrong?”

“I want Mar!” I was in hysterical now and I knew it would do me no good, I just hope that tonight won’t be like the other time she spent the night away. I can never forget that night no matter how hard I try.

“Gia, shell be back in the morning and she will be fine I promise, why don’t you try to go to sleep ill be downstairs for a bit with Zack and then we will be in here sleeping ok? You can come in if you need to. ill tell Zack to sleep in his cloths how’s that?”

“Fine, just don’t leave the house without me not tonight!”

“Ok, Zack and I will stay home I promise.” I know I’m being a baby but I don’t care. Everyone that I have ever cared about except for Mar has left me in the night, so I don’t trust the dark and I especially don’t trust Alex quite yet. I just hope he doesn’t ruin my trust any farther.

Hope that Y'all liked this chapter, please let me know if I have to fix anything it is late and I was at a concert for Marianas Trench last night(they were amazing) so please let me know what you think of it, this story has a few more turns yet and a twist in the next chapter. I have been leaving small hints in every chapter and I hope that some of you figure it out soon. Anyway I appreciate if you are reading this story, please fan, comment, vote, add to reading list what ever your heart may lead you to~Brooke