For a good 3 months I actually was happy and loved myself even more. I told my friend that one day everyone I care about is going to leave me, he told that he would never leave me. He also told me that the people that I care about wouldn't leave me because they care about me. Well my best friend has left me my boyfriend that I loved so god damn much left after he said that he would love me and be with me forever well, that didn't happen. So I just feel like why should I ever trust anyone anymore when all they do is promise things and then break the promise that they made to me.
So I'm back to hating myself and wishing that I was dead. I want to get rid of this pain so badly that I consider cutting myself. But I know that if I do that I'm going to hurt so many more people. So I have decided to just keep my mouth shut smile and say that I'm okay while I die on the inside. I will also let my trust in people slowly disappear because i don't think I could ever love or trust anyone anymore as much as I did before.
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SpirituálníDet här kommer inte att vara en riktig berättelse. Det här kommer att vara mina tankar när jag mår som dåligast och som bäst, eller när jag bara vill skriva om mitt kärleksliv , så stå ut med dystra tankar eller läs inte. This is not going to be a...
