love-blind

"i give up"

i was rudely awoken by a call from my best friend Emily at 4:30 in the morning. "hey Ems what's up? this better be important or imma kill you" i threatened tiredly. "it happened! code 10!" she hummed down the phone. code 10 means... she feel in love with her soulmate.

"that's great! super happy for you!" i laughed down the phone. "when at this late at night tho?" i asked confused, "at a club so i am not gonna remember in the morning so i need to tell you his number write it down!" she demanded. "k i'm listening" i sighed. "thanks!" she finally hung up,leaving me to sleep happily.

except once she hung up i burst into tears, that was all my friends with a soulmate but me. i was 15 last month by now i should be in LOVE with my soulmate but of course life had to be cruel so now i got no one. i have never had someone and i want someone for my own to make ME happy. half way through my cries i heard my father awaken, 'no men don't cry' i told myself calming down.

"go sleep your girlfriends so loud!" my dad shouted crushing me inside, "ew i don't like Emily like that!" i replied disgust evident in my tone. my dad just let out a sigh, "sleep" and with that he went back to bed leaving me with just my thoughts and the dark. "fine" i sighed my voice cracking slightly near the end.

{the next day}
"Emily i am happy i am just sad too, i have no one and that hurts" i always get deep with her in the mornings during home room it's how i remain sane for that day, so when she is off my day is... not very good.

"can't wait for failure" my friend Carson complained to me, "why" i asked knowing we we just gonna bunk off revision and sit there failing. "you know why you d••k" he shoved me off my seat. "yeah i do" i laughed. "hey umm Sirius my friend actually wants to pass french. could you help him sense i told him you would" Carson guiltily begged. "no. i have my own issues to take care of" i snapped back, "but..." "no i am not he can learn himself and you should stop volunteering me for stuff idiot"

"fine but he doesn't have a soulmate either so..." "Carson i'm straight" i sighed. "and no i have given up i'm done with that i don't care, i give up" i ranted. "fine dude whatever but he didn't do anything wrong and helping him could help your record of failure" he smirked at me. "no!" i snarled.

"fine why be so serious all the time" he pushed, "fine! i will help your friend! now will you please shut up!" i gave in to helping not the soulmate stuff. that i would not push my opinion on i had given up.

"yes! thanks tomorrow library at 4:00 you wannabe" he smiled at me. i just rolled my eyes and walked to class.

was i done? am i done? no i am! but...
no! i was firm on my word. i am done. these thoughts were fighting each other madly sadness had won though.

{¥ hi hope you like this cause i don't! but that's fine¥}