one decade || markson √

2014

I was scribbling on my notes
When suddenly a notification popped up from my phone
It was from Kunpimook.

"Meet me at the park at about 3-4 pm"

That was all he said
I still have time so I decided to keep journaling
Sometimes I took a sip from my tea
Hopefully, with this I could move on
I don't want to suffer from that feeling last year
Even though deep down, I still love him.

Think I just remembered something
I think I left the faucet running
Now my words are filling half the tub

I didn't even realized that hours had gone by, it is now 2 pm
I took a last sip of my tea when I didn't feel any liquid coming down
I had consumed all the tea and not realizing it
What was going on with me today?

Darling you're just soaking in it
But I know you'll get out the minute
You noticed all your fingers pruning up

I get ready, wearing simple outfit since I didn't think much of it
It's just a simple meet up with a friend I've known for so long
I don't need fancy things
Well that's what I thought
I thought I would see Kunpimook there
I thought I would talk to Kunpimook
But instead
I see him
Jackson.

I rubbed my eyes, not once, not twice, five times and still he was right there
Standing, smiling at me
It's been three goddamn years since the last time I saw him
He looks the same, his smile is still the same, oh you know how much I missed you.

I ran up to him, he was opening his arms for me to hug me thight, to share the warmness he had, to share the love

"Miss me much?" His voice is still raspy but sweet at the same time

"You don't know how much I missed you Wang" I cried, I didn't even realized I was crying when Jackson suddenly rubbed my back

I don't care if I'm being overdramatic
I was happy he's between my arms now
Finally the feeling I've been missing for three years.

Uh-oh, there it goes, I said too much, it overflowed
Why do I always spill?

"It's okay Mark, cry as much as you want, I guess you missed me that bad huh?"
He chuckled, I found nothing funny but I started to chuckle too.

I feel it coming out my throat
Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap

"You know what Jackson"

"What?"

God, I wish I never spoke
Now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap

"I lov-"

But then
Jackson was nowhere to be found

-❤-

Song: Melanie Martinez - Soap