one decade || markson √

2018

I was lying down on the floor
It's been eight years
Eight fucking years and I still can't forget it.

If I wasn't so silly this wouldn't have happened
If I actually pay attention to the news, this wouldn't happen
I just wish I knew this would happen.

Knock knock knock

I look inside the peephole
It's him
After he left me and blocked me he decided to show up like nothing happened
Great.

I open the door to see his eyes red as the bloodmoon
He was still sobbing, making me sure he had just finished crying
Why was he crying?
Why, out of all the place he could visit, he decided to come here?

"Jackson, what happened?"

"Don't act like you don't know Mark"

I was confused
What is he talking about

"What are y-"

"Just tell me the truth!" He cuts me off

"what truth? Even if I know, why would I tell the truth if you just gonna leave me five seconds later"

"I'm never leaving Mark"

"What do you mean.."

"I'm never leaving, I never even existed. Mark, I'm just your imagination"

"What.."

"it's been eight years and you still haven't moved on from that incident"

"I don't want to remember it"

"But you did, that's why you imagine I was here, crying, and leaving all of the sudden"
His voice filling up the room

"I don't- stop!!"

"I won't"

"Why?"

Silence
At this point, I knew what happened
I don't want to look up
I don't want to remember
I knew all of this
I just can't let him go

"Did you even know how much I fucking love you Wang?"

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