See You Bleed | ✓

XVI

I've been avoiding him ever since he confronted me about that fucking bag last week.

Being away from him helped me clear my head and rationally think about everything happening in my life since his coming back.

What are you doing, Sasha? I should stay away from him if past mistakes taught me any better. I went through hell after he left me. I won't survive it this time. Not again.

I'm drinking vodka shots while the crowd of people I barely know is cheering me on. A bunch of morons, all of them.

Are you any better though? I hope this voice shuts the fuck up.

I faintly remember taking a couple of colourful pills before I came here. Probably a bad idea to mix vodka with pure ecstasy, I chuckle to myself.

Someone is grinding against me. How did I end up on the dance floor? He's running his hands all over my body. The loud music is banging right in the centre of my brain. My sensations are heightened. Everything is enhanced.

I feel the great delight of loving the universe and being loved by the universe.

All my defences are lowered. I'm feeling confident, I'm feeling self-acceptant.

This is pure euphoria.

Some random guy is kissing me. I throw my hands around his neck and kiss him back. Rapture.

Suddenly I hear someone shouting. I'm being roughly taken away from the dance floor. "No... Take me back, I love that place!" I start whining.

"Shut your damn mouth, Sasha." Dumbstruck. What is he doing here? I'm trying to break out of his touch but my muscles aren't listening to me.

I'm feeling weak. I don't understand why he's so mad at me.

"Max, don't be mean to me," I giggle, "I love you, Max!" I exclaim happily before I see dark spots in my eyes.

I'm disoriented. I feel nauseous. I don't remember falling into blackness.