Sixteen
Yoongi.
"What took you so long?"
Leena keeps looking out the window not able to answer me, she knows I know already. So we remain quiet, I grip the steering wheel a bit tighter as I continue to drive home.
I'm not sure how we got to this point, a couple months ago we were fine. She wouldn't dare look at another man and would be all over me any chance she got. Especially when y/n was around. Leena knew about y/n's feelings. Unfortunately for my kitten she wears her feelings, it's easy to tell what she really feels. At least for me, she's gotten a little better though.
Our whole dynamic was great until I proposed and I only did so because of the news she gave me a week prior. She was pregnant. We haven't told anyone yet and she would surly show sooner or later, but sense then I can't look at her or even stand her for that matter and Leena seems to feel the same way about me.
The thought of being tied to each other just seemed...unbearable? This woman would be in my life forever because we were going to share a child. I'd have to deal with her for the rest of my life...I couldn't Phaethon the thought. It was still crazy to me, we had always used protection because we both agreed that neither of us wanted children. But clearly there was a flaw...
I never wanted a family or a wife, the only person that I could even Phaethon the thought was with y/n. If in some other world we could be together I'd want her to be my wife and to have my kids. She'd be the best mom and fuck the way she took care of me all these years she'd definitely be the most amazing wife. But I could never do that to her, I couldn't trap her in my life knowing what a shitty husband let alone father I would be.
The drive isn't long but fuck was it unbearable, I grab the bag of food and head in the house. I don't even wait for Leena and I can hear her huffing and puffing in the back of me. I kick off my shoes and head to the kitchen to take out my dinner for the evening. Leena slowly follows, I continue to ignore her as she stands on the opposite side of the island.
"Yoongi"
I continue to pick at the food and put some on a plate for myself, I hear her sigh again "We need to talk" I take a deep breath and look up, finally meeting her gaze. "I don't see what we have to talk about"
"Us, our situation...I'm not happy and clearly you aren't either. Why can't we just get rid of the thing"
I feel angry instantly, yes I didn't want children but I wasn't going to get rid of my own child. Clearly this baby was meant to be in my life for some fucked up reason, so no I wasn't going to let her go and kill our child. I didn't believe in a lot of things but fate and karma were two things that made sense to me and This was my karma.
"We've talked about that already and you know where I stand so why do you keep bringing it up?"
She glares, I can see her fists ball up on top of the counter "It's not just your choice Yoongi! It's my body and I don't want this thing, I want nothing to do with it!"
I take a deep breath and rub my temples, I'm doing my best to remain calm and not let my anger or anxiety lead this conversation.
"You don't even love me..."
I look back at her and she looks...upset? It's a weird expression that I haven't seen on her before. Leena was always on her A game and always confident in herself and everything she did. It's what drew me to her, that and her nice ass body.
"What's that have to do with anything? It's not like you love me. If you did you wouldn't be fucking around with every guy that gives you attention, especially while you're pregnant with my child. We both know you love my money and the lifestyle I provide for you, you don't love me"
The vulnerable look quickly changes and she's back to her bitch self.
"Maybe I wouldn't fuck around all the time if you would just give me some damn attention every once in a while! Instead all you do is mope around about that stupid bitch! She doesn't even miss you Yoongi, can't you see that? She's moved on with that guy. So get over it and get your priorities straight, I'm going to be your wife not her! I'm having your child not her!"
I'm a bit taken back as this crazy woman screams at me but then again I should be used to it. Every time y/n gets brought up she gets possessive and psychotic.
"Don't fucking talk about her like that Leena, you're walking a very dangerous line right now"
She glares more and opens her mouth, I raise my brow and she quickly closes it and storms off. Making sure to slam every fucking door she can. I'm not even hungry anymore, I grab my keys and slip on my shoes and leave in fear I might do something crazy.
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I drive to y/n's place first, I know I shouldn't be here but just being in the same area as her makes me feel calmer. I watch her window hoping to get a glimpse of her because honestly I fucking miss her. I'd never tell her that but I do I miss her. I miss holding her and teasing her, I miss kissing her and making her smile with my stupid nicknames.
I missed everything about the damn girl.
Leena was probably right, y/n probably was moving on and as pissed off as that makes me. I needed her to do so, to forget me and be happy for a change. I wish I could be that person, make her happy all the time but knowing myself I could never be that guy.
I could never be the type to just be with one woman, I was too greedy. I also know that whenever I feel remotely happy I tend to do everything in my power to fuck it up because in my head I already know I'm going to mess things up. It's what I'm good at. It's why me and y/n would never work, I'm so tired of hurting her...
But the selfish part of me just wants her, I crave her all the time....
I sigh and glance up at her window again, I can see a shadow but I can't make out if it's my kittens or not. "Come on y/n...I just need to see you" I mumble to myself like an idiot in hopes that it's her but to my utter disappointment it's not her at all it's Jungkook.
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