Our Red String of Fate | kth

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12.27.19

I'm so tired. All I want to do is sleep - is that too much to ask for? I guess so.

Today's the day I quit the restaurant. Damn, I'm glad to be rid of that place. I'll still be working the night shift at the convenience store, but at least my afternoons will be free.

And...I stopped going to class. University won't help me once I'm, you know. Gone. It actually feels nice to be free during the day. I guess this is what it feels like to not worry about money.

I paid the rent for this month early. I don't want other people to suffer because of me any longer. Once I'm gone, I'll be free. And they'll be free of me.

It's 11:00 in the morning. I'm not used to being free - at this time I'm usually in class. Maybe I'll go window shopping? Or maybe I'll take a walk? A walk sounds nice. Come to think of it, I haven't gone to a park in a while. I think I'll take the subway to that one cherry blossom park near here. Strange that I've never been there when I live less than twenty minutes away.

     I guess I'm off, then. I'll be back after seeing the cherry blossoms falling :)

-red

I opened my closet to find...almost nothing. Saving up for classes meant no money for anything else, so the only clothes I owned were hand-me-downs from family friends. Which meant, in short, they were all out of style.

I suppose the usual will have to do: an old, oversized hoodie and some faded black jeans. I grabbed my phone from the desk, slipped on a pair of sneakers, and headed out the door.

Hopping off the subway, I climbed the stairs up the exit and found myself surrounded by pink trees. The park was beautiful; cherry blossom trees lined a wide walkway where countless couples made sweet memories. I sighed. Kinda sad that I didn't have a chance to date before leaving.

I slowly made my way down the side of the path, breathing in the sweet smell of the blossoms around me. After wandering for a while, I saw that the path started to climb up the mountain next to it. I had all the time in the world. I guess I'll go for a little hike.

I made it to the top of the mountain and was welcomed by a balcony overlooking Seoul. Next to the overlook, I saw a suspended bridge over a valley connecting to another mountain. No one was on it; a perfect opportunity for me. I walked over to the start of the thin bridge. Sighing, I chuckled. How ironic it was that the only time I was enjoying myself was before I killed myself.

After a few minutes I found myself in the middle of the bridge. I leaned my elbows on the rail and looked over.

It would be such a long fall.

What if I fell? What if I jumped from here and did it now? Would it really make a difference, doing it a few days ahead of schedule? What if I did it? I would be surrounded by beautiful scenery while falling-

"Pretty, isn't it?"

I jumped and looked to where the voice came from: beside me.

"You!" I exclaimed, pointing to the tall, dark-haired man next to me.

He laughed softly. "I feel like I've met you before," he said while looking out at the city.

I hadn't really noticed it before, but he was handsome. Not just good-looking, but it was like he was an angel. His head and body looked perfectly proportioned underneath the long trenchcoat he was wearing. His hair seemed so soft and fluffy as it swayed a little in the wind.

"I think so too," I said lightly. "I wonder why we've been running into each other so often?"

"Destiny?" he responded, chuckling. "Or maybe...fate?" He glanced towards me.

I smiled, turning to look out again over the bridge. "Maybe. But I'm not sure; the gods would be really mean if they only let you meet me now."

He furrowed his brows. "Mean? How so?"

My gaze drifted towards my feet as I responded. "Because we wouldn't be able to meet anymore." I shook my head and looked back at him.

"Anyway, I should get going. It's a long walk down, huh?"

Still looking a bit confused, he grinned. "Wanna go down together? I should start making my way back too."

I nodded. "Shall we?"

As we walked down talking, only one thought stayed in my mind.

Please don't get attached to me. Please just forget about me after today. I don't want anyone else getting hurt. Please.

I hope you have a good life.

I hope you stay happy.