The Assistant

CHAPTER 17: Is This It?

《BELLE》

I immediately ran up the stairs after him and when I opened the door, I closed it behind me as I saw him throwing forcefully his things into his duffel bag.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I know that I should've. It was stupid to allow Rob to try and threaten and blackmail me. But it's no excuse and...." I began but stopped after he interrupted me.

"I don't want to hear it. You should have told me and I don't give a fuck if he threatened you or not because I'm not going to give you any sympathy." He tells me while holding back anger as I can tell by the look on his face.

I try holding back tears but a few fall down my face.

I try walking up towards him.

"Please. Let me explain...." I start to say but he cuts me off again.

He just looks at me really pissed off and is holding himself back from yelling out at me.

"Just......just stay away from me right now. I'm heading back to New York and when you come back, we'll talk about your position at work. But as for you and me, we are done." He says and then grabs his bag and storms out the door.

I can't move. I fall onto my bed and feel one of the worst pains in my chest than I ever have in a long time.

I can't help but sob and cry the hardest that I ever had in my life. Especially after hearing the front door slam shut from him leaving.

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Two months later

It's been a couple of months since I have last seen or spoken with James.

He hasn't answered my calls, texts or emails.

I didn't care about if rather or not I had lost my job. I cared more about if I had lost the love of my life and the father of my unborn child.

It was a couple of weeks after New Years that I started to feel like something was wrong and so I went into the doctor's and found out I was pregnant.

I had tried to tell James that I was and even had wrote a letter. But no answer. So after almost two months now of no answer, I just focus on what I'm going to do.

By now, or as of last month, I have moved back into my parents house and that happened after two weeks from when James left and then sent me all my things from my office, along with an envelope with a check and letter that let me know I was let go, along with a letter of recommendation.

That was how I knew for sure we were over. So I had my ex-roommate send me the rest of my stuff and just moved in here.

I did get a job at my mom's candle shop in town. Just so that I can make some money until I figure out what I want to do. Plus, I don't want to live with my parents forever and I don't want them to have to support me and my baby. So I figured this was good for now. And my I really wish my brother was still living here, however, right after New Years, he moved away with his boyfriend. We face time almost everyday, but still, it would be nice to have him here in person.

Today, was my mom's birthday. So me, my dad, mom of course, Monica had come over to celebrate and stay for the dinner I had cooked. Though Rob wasn't there.

After James had found out what Rob and his uncle were doing, apparently, not too long after James had returned back to New York, he sued Rob and his uncle along with pressing charges, sent them to prison.

I was really pissed off still at both Rob and Monica and hadn't really spoken to them as much since after what happened.

We all were sitting around the table talking and eating. Well, mostly they were talking, I was remaining quiet.

Then Monica of course had to start in on me.

"So, have you heard from James?" She asks knowing very well that I haven't and it hurts for me to even hear him being mentioned.

"Monica?!" Our mom snapped at her.

"What? I was just asking her a question." She says as she takes another drink from her third glass of wine.

"Monica! That's enough." Our dad says.

"Can we please stop talking like I'm not even here? Or that I can't at least even speak for myself?" I ask.

"Sorry Angel." Our mom says to me.

"Oh my god, really? You guys are still going to baby her even though she's in her mid twenties?" Monica comments.

"Shut the hell up!" I snap at her.

Everyone looks at me surprised and shocked.

"Excuse me?" Monica says.

"Just...for once, Monica. Shut the fuck up and get over yourself. It's becoming old and annoying as shit." I tell her as I place a piece of roll into my mouth.

"Yeah, go ahead and stuff your face like you always do. You're gonna have a fat baby." She blurts out as she downs the last of her drink.

"Monica!" Both our mom and dad said in unison.

"You should talk, alcoholic." I snap back at Monica.

"Pumpkin." Our dad said to me.

"No. Let her finish." Monica says to him.

"I'm not fighting with you and am not doing this with you especially on mom's birthday. Believe it or not, that means this is her day, not yours." I tell her. Since she always finds a way to make almost everyday, her day and always has.

"Oh please, you have always been thriving to make mom and dad always take pity on you and baby you cause of how sensitive you are. Like you're something special." Monica says.

"Oh my gosh, are you kidding me right now? You have more of their attention than I do. Especially mom's, since we were little." I fired back at her.

"What the fuck ever." Monica says while rolling her eyes.

"Okay, seriously, what is your problem?!" I demanded. 

"At the moment, you. It's because of you that Rob and his uncle are in prison. You and your asshole boss." She says as she crosses her arms across her chest.

"What?" Our dad asks.

"Why don't you ask her what happened. It was after all, her fault." Monica snaps at me.

"It wasn't my fault that your boyfriend was doing something illegal." I reminded her.

"Oh please. You have been after Rob ever since him and I got together." Monica says.

"Wow.....Really? Man, are you way off. I have loathed the both of you being together since you both decided to rub it in my face that you two were dating. And not to mention after the fact that he cheated on me with you and you both walked around all proud while I was dealing with a fucking miscarriage that he had caused. Then when I finally leave you both in the past and try to make my life better and try to escape from all the pain you both caused but then to return a few years later for the holidays, you two are still together and still looking pathetic as you gloat your fake love for each other and continue living in high school. Then he blackmails me and threatens to destroy dad's business if I tried to tell James about what Robs' plans were. Yes, I am glad he is in prison. He should have been thrown in there a long time ago. So do I feel sorry for you or for him? Hell no!" I finish the last part as I stand and lean forward on the table towards her. "Happy birthday mom. The cake is in the fridge." I say before I turn around and head up to my bedroom and lock my door behind me.

I fall onto the bed and I start crying really hard. I had never told my parents about the miscarriage and the fact he cheated on me with Monica.

I need to leave. I need to go somewhere where nobody knows me and where I can just have some peace and quiet so I can think. I can't be around all of this bullshit right now and I need to be extra careful especially right now because I'm pregnant.

Though I just wish that I wasn't alone and that even if James and I weren't together, that at least he could be a part of our baby's life.

Then again, it just might not be his thing. So I guess, this is all for the best.

Next chapter coming soon! :);)