girl crush (ON HOLD)

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"...you." i tightened the grip on my fists as i realized that i slipped. i mentally scolded myself for saying such words. sure, i wanted to say that but it wasn't the right time, i suppose.

i then stared at her for her reaction but all i got was nothing. i felt awkward since she wasn't responding to me so i held my head down, kind of dissappointed. "sorry."

i suddenly felt like i ruined the moment so i took this as a chance to leave the situation and probably never come back. "i'm gonna take a breather." i whispered as i hastily walked away with my fists balled.

knowing that i was far from her, i let out the breath that i didn't know i was holding. i ran my hand through my hair, suddenly panicking. many questions ran through my head, as well as regret. i thought she would
play it out as a joke, or at least give a some sort of reaction. but she didn't.

"fuck, i screwed up."

i frowned, realizing that i was making a big deal out of small things again.

then my phone rang, indicating that i had a call. i took my phone out my pocket after taking huge breaths. "who would call me?" i asked to myself as i took a glance at the contact. my eyes widened as i instantly fixed myself even though she wouldn't see me. it was my mom. my mom was calling.

she never really called a lot, but when she does, she's going to rat you out to death. but still, she was my mom and she's the only parent i have, since my father had past away a long time ago. i smiled, swiping the green call button and placing my phone against my ear.

"hello mo-"

"good day, ma'am. is this lee jihyun, the daughter of lee yewon?"

hearing the voice of an unfamiliar person, i instantly panicked. then a thought came into my head. 'what if?... no. impossible.'

"y-yes, that's me." i answered in the most collected way as possible. if stuttering is considered collected, that is.

"we've got a bad news for you ma'am." i felt my heart drop just hearing the sentence. i was scared, just knowing that what i would hearing right now would be something bad. and i didn't like it one bit.

"please c-continue.." i ushered the female on the other line to continue as she had stopped her words for a moment. "i'm sorry to say, but your mother got into a car accident an hour ago."

my world seemed to stop. i didn't know what to do, i didn't want to believe it. "i'm s-sorry... pardon?" i wanted the female to say something else. something much better than that, but it was the same.

"your mother has been brought to x hospital an hour ago because she got into a car accident."

"i-i'm coming." i ended the call in an instant, slipping my phone into my pocket. i turned around, about to leave the park when i saw byulyi standing behind me.

after that call, i forgot about everything, even her. "i need to go, i-i'm sorry." i walked past her when she grabbed my arm, stopping me from moving any further. (edited) "i'll take you there." my eyes widen in shock at the statement she gives me.

how did she know? was the first thing that came into my mind. "i'll explain." as if she read my mind, she answers the question in my mind as she tugs on my arm pulling me through the park.

what we faced was a black van that was parked near the streets.

she opened the door, surprising the driver at the front. moonbyul ushered me inside the spacious van, and soon followed after me. "back so soo-"

"no time to explain, head to..-"

"x hospital." i answered without a thought.

"right now." byulyi ordered as the driver nodded and stepped on the gas immediately.

she then takes my hand in hers as she faces me with a worried look. "don't worry too much, okay?" i calmed down a little, but it wasn't enough for all my worries to disappear.

my breathing started to have a faster pace and tears were threatening to leave my eyes. it was only now that i realized what the situation really is.

"i'm so scared..." i bit my lip as i had a hard time breathing. byulyi held my hand tighter, as she caresses my hair, an attempt to calm me down. but it wasn't working at all.

"shh, it's okay, jihyun..." i shook my head, tears streaming down my face. "i'm so fucking scared, byul." i grit my teeth as i gripped on her shirt. she sighs, wrapping her arm around me.

i cried on her shoulder as she tries to make me fall asleep. to her dismay, i can't really fall alseep knowing that i would lose my family. moonbyul gives up making me fall asleep so she decides to do something she probably won't do again in her life.

she sang.

moonbyul sang to me in an attempt to calm me down somehow.

my tears stopped and sniffles were only heard, along with her beautiful voice. her voice was really unique, she had a kind of raspy voice but it was nice to hear.

but i really didn't mind if her voice isn't nice. cause i mean, she's already singing to me and i love it since it's the first time i heard her sing.

"thank you, byul."