Bonnie's POV
"Okay..." I hear Elena say before walking out of her bathroom. She has a black, skintight dress that is up to her mid thigh and some black heels. "You look... beautiful, E." I smile at her and she rolls her eyes. "Bonnie, do I have to go?" She groans, taking off her heels and rubbing her feet while making an annoyed face.
"Yes, you do." I start, grabbing her feet and placing the heels back on. "You can't just stay in here moping around all the time. Elena, I love you. So does Jermey and Caroline and your dad. Point is, you're loved. And you're hurting us all." I tell her, looking down. Tears fill her eyes as I shake my head. "No, no, no, no. Don't you cry. You're gonna mess up your makeup." I run to her, fanning her face and she laughs.
"You're right, Bonnie. I'm hurting everyone that loves me." She rubs her arm and I take her hand in mine. "Just promise me you'll get better. For me?" I smile and she smiles. "Yeah, I will." I hug her as I grab my dress to get ready. "Okay, see you in a sec."
Elenas POV
I walk into this fancy restaurant that's very unfamiliar to me. Bonnie says this a get-together with friends and the reason we're dressing fancy is cause the restaurant is fancy. I really don't know.
All I know, is that I'd rather be in my room, alone rather than here. I haven't been out in a while. As I walk behind Jeremy and Bonnie, I notice Caroline and Tyler sitting at this round table. "Hey guys." I smile while hugging Tyler. I then look at Caroline and she smiles at me. "Glad you're here." She tells me before I look down at her stomach.
"You look great. You're barely showing but it's alright." I tell her as I rub her tiny bump. She smiles and I sit two seats away from her and Tyler. Bonnie and Jeremy sit next to them, leaving three seats. "Who else is coming?" I ask and Caroline opens her mouth to talk but I hear a familiar voice behind me.
"Sorry I'm late. Damon and Lexi couldn't make it." Stefan says, fixing his tie as he sits one seat down from me. (This is probably confusing I'm sorry) You've got to be kidding me. "Excuse me." I say, almost running into the bathroom.
The one time I finally get out of the house, he has to be here. I just have to show him I don't care. That I can do this. That I don't need him. I fix up my hair before walking out of the bathroom.
"Sorry about that." I smile and everyone's eyes are glued on Stefan and I. I sit down, flipping my hair to the side. "So, what're you guys ordering?"
(Later)
Everyone's getting ready to leave, grabbing their stuff as I walk up to Bonnie and Jer. "Hey, I'll be back. I'm gonna go to the restroom." I tell them, shooting them a small smile. "Alright." Bonnie says, turning to talk to Caroline, Tyler and Stefan.
I walk into the bathroom, stepping in front of the mirror as I look at my makeup filled face. Something I haven't seen in months. Something I.. missed. I look at myself and admire the fact that I didn't break down right there and then. "Good job, Gilbert." I talk to myself like a crazy person.
I hear the door open and assume it's Bonnie as I say "Hold on, Bonnie. I'll be right there." I earn a deep chuckle from that sentence. I quickly turn around to see Stefan standing there. "What're you doing in here?" I ask, rolling my eyes.
"I'm here to see you." He tells me and I scoff. "You still want me, dont you?" Stefan asks and bite my lip. I try pushing past him but he grabs me by my wrist, positioning me in front of him. "Stefan..." I start and he slowly pushing me against the wall.
"You do, dont you?" He whispers in my ear as I feel his warm breath against my skin. My back finally reaches against the wall, causing shivers to go throughout my body.
"Yes, Stefan. I still want you." I start and he smirks. "And I hate you for it. I hate you for hurting me." I hit his chest causing him to back up a bit. "I hate you for causing me this anger." I hit his chest again. "And lastly... I hate you for making me love you. For making me trust you." I tell him, staring into his eyes and, before I know it, our lips are smashing against each other's.
"God, I can't believe you." I say, tilting my head back as he kisses my neck. "Come on." He says, leading me to the door. "I shouldn't. I have to go." I tell him, following him anyway. "Damnit." I mumble before leaving through the back exit with Stefan.
(At the apartment)
Stefan opens the apartment door, letting me walk inside and I take in his scent. God have I missed it. "What am I doing here?" I whisper to myself, thinking he wouldn't hear me. "You're here cause you want to be." Stefan stands in front of me.
"You're here because you know that we're right for each other." He tells me and I slowly shake my head. It's true but, I can't just.. forget. "You broke me, you know?" I laugh as Stefan looks down. "I know and I'm sorry. I'm gonna do as much as I can to make it up to you." He tells me and I look up.
"Starting with this... if you'll let me." He places his hand on my waist, slowly making his way down to my ass and I look up at him. He wasn't my first which, I do regret. And even though I'm mad at him and even though he hurt me, I can't stop myself from placing my lips on top of his.
He pulls away, smiling at me and I roll my eyes. "Shut up." I say, smashing our lips together. Without breaking our kiss, we start making our way to his bedroom. When we reach his bedroom, I take his jacket off along with his tie and his shirt. He starts unzipping the back of my dress.
Once my dress and his pants are completely gone, I find myself under the covers, Stefan hovering over me. I feel his hand under my back unclipping my bra. Once my bra was unclipped, he threw it on the ground. I wasn't insecure around Stefan. He always made me feel like I was beautiful.
Stefan begins to lay small, warm kisses on my chest and makes his way down to my stomach and all the way down in between my legs. He slides my underwear down my legs as I start to grow a little impatient. Although I've spent a while hating Stefan, I couldn't help but want him now more than ever.
He teases me by kissing my inner thighs and touching around my area. "Stefan..." I groan, tugging on the back of his head as he begins sucking on my clit. I arch my back, making it somewhat easier for him. It was pure bliss. To be feeling that I was feeling. I was convinced that Stefan really did know what he was doing.
"Stefan-" I moan as my legs start to shake. "Holy shit." I breath out and Stefan levels his face with mine. Stefan quickly grabs a condom from his nightstand and open the wrapper with his teeth before sliding it on himself. He looks at me and I nod at him, conforming that I actually wanted this.
I know I'm gonna regret this in the morning but, I don't care. He leaves his tip at my entrance and I tilt my head backwards in frustration. "Please..." I whisper and he looks at me. "Tell me that you want me." Stefans smirks and I can't help but feel aroused. "I want you, Stefan." There was no point in denying it. Because the truth was, I didn't just want him, I needed him.
It was like this hunger that was growing deep inside me. A satisfied smirk appears on Stefans face as he slowly enters me. "Oh.." I breath out, my eyes rolling in the back of my head as Stefans starts pumping himself in and out of me. I'll admit, this was the best I've felt in a while. "F-faster." I moan and he nods and starts going faster.
I've had sex with him before. But I guess that since it's been a while has completely made it new and fresher for me. "I'm-" I manage to get out before letting the biggest moan out. Stefan's thrusts get faster and sloppier, indicating he's about to finish up as well. "You're almost there baby." I kiss his neck, tugging at the back of his hair and he grunts, pushing himself deeper into me and I let a moan escape my lips.
He climbs off me, taking off the condom before tying it and tossing it in the trash bin next to him. I turn over in the tangled sheets so that I'm facing him. He catches me staring and I quickly look up at the ceiling. He takes a long sigh before whispering to me. "Come here."
He takes me in his arms and holds me tight against him. And not only did I realize what just happened, but, I realized that...
I'm screwed.
Authors note: I apologize for not updating in so long. I've just moved houses and I'm working on a new stelena book. Thank you for your patience and please try to stay patient with me. ❤️
