Xara
After a few minutes they all noticed me and Jah walked up to me with a sad face. Is he finally gonna tell me what's going on here. "Okay Xara..." he said. I knew this was serious cause he said my fucking name bruh. "So um...JayMarie...um...She sliced her arms" he said. At that moment my fucking heart broke. I didn't wanna cry cause I think it's pussy to cry. I couldn't hold it in I just started crying and couldn't breath. Jah hugged me and I rested my head on his shoulder. I couldn't stop crying like I just met her and it feels like I knew her my whole life. We sat down and just waited. I just couldn't believe it. My friend mite die. She my only fucking friend at that school bruh. If she fucking dies they gonna have to put me on suicide watch forever. I was sitting tapping my leg looking at the floor while Stokeley kept walking back and forth. They took so long I was starting to lose hope.
Then the doctor walked out and we all stood up and walked towards him. "She lost a lot of blood...but I'm sorry" he said. At that fucking moment I dropped to the floor and started to fucking cry. The pain in my heart couldn't even be explained. Just why her why. She so lovable and always friendly. I couldn't stop crying. I felt my soul turn just dark. I wanted to kill that boy from last night. She probably killed herself over that shit. I just wanted to go home I didn't wanna be their anymore. Coolie took me home cause Jah was trying to calm Stokeley down cause he was going crazy. We pulled to my house and coolie gave me hug and I walked in my house. Lucas was at the door and I looked at him and started to cry. He pulled me into a hug and I just kept crying.
1 week later
I haven't left my room after the whole situation. That boy who touched her died cause he got shot in the head by her brother and cousins. Her funeral was yesterday I did go but I didn't speak to no one. My heart is painted black. Over and over again I still think about if I could've moved her away from that fucking dude but I didn't. I can't blame myself. Everyone been trying to get me out my room but I don't come out. Even Jah,Stokeley, and Coolie came over one day and couldn't get me out my room. I just lay in bed and listen to her playlist she made on my phone. All of her favorite songs that I listen to. I always watch this one video of her that I recorded. "I JUST WANNA KNOW WHO TF ATE MY FUCKING PIZZA ROLLS IM FINNA GO THE FUCK OFF AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" it said in the video.
