You.

weak.

I sit alone in the corner and let the darkness swallow me

there's a bizarre familiarity about it 

a feeling that i belong here 

but not the warm and fuzzy kind where you feel at home and safe 

no 

this was far from that

I let go

 I let my thoughts consume me

 and demons surround me

i'm so tired 

im so tired all the time

My demons echoing in my head 

i can hear their taunting voices 

so loud

so prevalent

"You'll never make it, you're not strong enough"

I try to push those thoughts out of my mind 

"You are nothing"

my breathing getting faster, shorter 

"You will never be anything"

my heart pounding 

racing 

faster than it's ever been 

"why are you even trying"

tears drip down from my chin 

onto the cold ceramic beneath me 

little white dots start appearing 

"Just stop"

the dots turn black 

"give in"

my entire vision becomes dark 

a black abyss of oblivion

nothing. 

I want to be alone

Please leave me alone

Now

I just wanna die

Let me die

Die

Die