Never Let You Go (3)

CHAPTER TEN

Look I know I can be a bitch and say things that I don't mean. I know I can't change the past but I can apologize for the things I have done. People make mistakes some more than others. Meeting you was not one of those mistakes though. I don't regret a single day I've spent with you. From the moment I saw you a spark that was once dead was brought back to life. You did that to me, you brought the spark back to my life. You are my motivation to get up every morning. The reason I stopped moping around feeling sorry for myself. With your help I've become the person I am today. Because of your big heart, amazing sense of humor and undying love for me {especially when I least deserved it} I am here. If it wasn't for you I would have no reason to live. I know that sounds harsh but it's the truth. I don't want to live in a world where I can't be with you. You are my rock, my life savior and my one and only. I don't want to be like other's who fade out as time goes on. I don't want to be like them, you and I we can make it to the end, we can make it if we try. The love that we share is rare, it's unique and it's ours. Nobody knows me the way that you do and nobody loves you the way that I do, the love that we share is fireproof. We've had our moments in time but we've come out stronger than we were before. There is nothing we can't get through. I wouldn't last a single day without you, I'd go crazy and I'd just fade away. You are the light of my life and there is nothing I wouldn't do to keep you as mine. I love everything about you. Your smile, your eyes, your heart and most importantly your soul. You are my soulmate nobody can or ever will replace you.

You are the reason for my smiles, my laughs and my tears most are happy and some are sad but that doesn't matter. At the end of the day I have you and you have me. You are my always and forever. You are my life, my future and my world but most importantly you are my... Infinity

***All the love in the world ***

<3Cassandra Jean McGavin <3

I couldn't sleep so I wrote out all my feelings on this piece of paper, all of the true. Every last one of these words is how I feel about Niall. I realize now that I need him in my life and I can't hold that back anymore. In the morning I will type this up and hide it in his bag so he has it to read when he gets back home to England tomorrow, he leaves tonight. I have three more weeks before I leave for my European adventure. Taylor decided not to go. She said she couldn't stand to be away from Jojo that long. I have made a couple of friends so I have no worries.. for now anyways. I do know I have to hurry up and go to bed since I have school in the morning.

"School is such a drag, I'd rather be spending the day with Louis and my baby" Taylor whines

"Yea but we need our education you never know when you're going to need to use trigonometry in the real world" I say

"Ha Ha very funny" Taylor says

"Just Sayin" I reply

After school I hurry home to put the letter I wrote in Niall's suitcase. He almost catches me doing it I lie to him and tell him I was just getting ready to take the suite case downstairs. I am taking him to the airport in two hours and then I won't see him for almost a month. Harry is going to be getting out of the rehab facility in two months and then he's going back to England as well. I hope that he gets better and gets back to the fun loving harry I knew when I first met him almost two years ago.

"Cassie I'm going to miss you" Niall says to me

"I'll miss you too" I say to him

Then without warning his lips crash into mine. The moment seems to last an eternity.

"Niall.. can.. can we go up to my room?" I ask shyly

"oh uh yeah sure" he says

We go back upstairs leaving all his suitcases piled up in the living room. Niall sits on the edge of my bed as I go into the bathroom. I bought a sexy little referee outfit seeing he loves soccer and all to surprise him and give him the best good bye gift ever...myself. After I get the outfit on touch up my makeup and pull my hair back into a braid I open the door and lean on the door frame. Niall is paying no attention, he's on his phone.