The Cure • S.M •

13. "I miss you"

Shawn looks so bad. He looks worst than me. He's just there, laying on the floor, his hair felling down in his eyes, a whiskey bottle in a hand. He grabs the corners of the bed to sit up but I can see that he has troubles standing up.
"I'll take you too sit you on the bed " I say, with no face expression because I lost my emotions at that party where he kissed camila. I come closer from him.

He smells like if he didn't take any shower and his hair really looks greasy. I grab him under his armpits and I take him of the floor. God he's heavy. Of course, he sweated a lot and when he let out a sigh, his breath really smells like morning breath and alcohol at the same time.  I don't know what to do, I'm mad at him, but I can't let Shawn like this.

I reach the bathroom, take out some Advil's and his toothbrush. When I come back in his room, he's starring at the ceiling telling himself he's a dick and asshole, I wash his mouth without saying a word, I give him the Advil's and as soon as his head touches the pillow, he falls asleep. I put on his nightstand a cup of water,some other Advil's, a cleaned shirt and I take the alcohol away.  I stare at him sleeping for a minute or more, I get out of the room...

Shawn's p.o.v
I open my eyes and immediately close them. The ceiling looks like he's turning around in circles. I slowly try to put my head up but my head hurts so bad like a hammer was knocking in my brain. I finally see something that isn't all blurred. There's some Advil and a glass of water on my nightstand. I then remember what happened last night. I drank so much and y/n came. She took care of me. I slightly smile and then remember that she still thinks I'm a dick. We still have to talk.... I take the Advil's and I feel a bit better.

After a couple of minutes, y/n walks in. Obviously, she didn't expect me to be awake. As soon as she sees me, her face closed up like if she really don't wanna show her feelings. I know she still loves me, but I can't take it as an advantage, she has to know that I'm sorry."hey y/n..I think we need to talk.." I say while showing her the place besides me on the bed. Instead of going there, y/n sits on a chair besides the hotel's tv. Woah, she's really mad at me.

We don't say a word for a minute or so, I need to be sure of what I'll be saying, I want our story to continue. I finally start talking. "Look, camila and I met a while ago and we dated for a almost a year. I broke up with her and she didn't  take it. She still loves me. And at that party at Brian's I was so drunk and I know it doesn't apologize what I did, but please forgive me y/n." I say, begging her.

She looks at me with those eyes that drives me crazy. She looks like she's about to cry and I know I won't be able to handle seing the women I live cry because of me."look Shawn, I know that maybe she kissed you first, but you should've stop her, instead of grabbing her butt!" She answers with an angry look now. If she looked like she was disappointed, now she's mad at the asshole I am.

"Y/n, I just love you so much, you were my whole world, I start and now she's crying but I need to tell her,  I love you and I dont wanna loose you, I want us to be together I wanna take care of you, I don't care about camila or any other girls, it's just you. Cross on my heart it will never happen again but give me a second shot. I wanna be with you. I love you" I say, almost begging her to forgive me. She cries after hearing me say this to her.

"Shawn, I love you too, I'll give you a second chance, because I love you, but I don't want you to talk to her ever again and I don't want these things to happen again. " she says, standing up. "Of course y/n I already told her I don't want her and I blocked her, it won't ever happen again babe, I love you" I promise to her. She jumps on the bed, crying, and snuggles into my arms, hugging me as tight as she can, crying on my chest and my hand are rubbing her back and her hair. "I missed you shawn.she starts, don't ever do this to me again"....