Namjin and SeokJin have been friends all their lives. Went to the same college and high school, same band in college but Namjoon leaves after an unexpected thing happens and leaves his best friend Jin alone without a clue of what to do. Jin becomes...
I sat on my couch. Days after Jin had kicked me from their apartment and he wasn't texting me. Though the pain didn't subside I kept working myself over to help the heartbreak. Jin wasn't talking to me and suddenly it was like when I left again, I was without Jin and in so much pain it hurt me to do anything. I wanted to close my eyes and never wake up again but I knew that was childish of me to think about. I had to fix our relationship before I focused because it was like he was my muse and I couldn't function without him.
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I smiled, so many weeks of hard effort pulled off and I'd finally be able to talk it out with him face to face. When I got to his apartment he kept his distance while refusing to meet my eyes. I knew he was upset and angry and he may forgive me if he let me do anything.
Namjoon- "Jin."
He looked up and the pain I felt was unbearable when a tear slid down his face so I pulled him into my arms and made his head rest on my shoulder.
Namjoon- "God...Jinnie. I'm sorry."
I felt his tears on my neck so I held him close without speaking. Once he had tired himself out from crying we cuddled on the couch since Jungkook was away for a trip with Jimin and Taehyung.
Jin- "Why didn't you tell me?"
I stroked his head lightly.
Namjoon- "How could I? That's not easy to bring up in a casual conversation. I couldnt just be like "Hey Jin. I'm dying. And oh hey I have to leave you so that I can go have treatments that are possibly going to fail." Now could I?"
He looked up.
Jin- "You left for treatments?"
Namjoon- "That was one of many reasons. Mostly I left so that you could flutter and fly without me. You have everything I've ever wanted with just a smile. You're Jin. Kim SeokJin. The man I've always loved and cherished."
I lightly moved him back and took his chin into my hand softly. Though he tried to pull away from me I didn't let him until he shoved me away and got up. He knew just how to piss me off sometimes but I knew where he was coming from.
Namjoon- "Jin. We're not kids anymore. Stop acting as if you're the only one that's hurt! LOOK AT ME JIN! I'M RIGHT HERE AND DYING BUT YOU WISH TO HOLD A GRUDGE."
Jin- "EXACTLY! NAMJOON YOU'RE DYING AND I'M RIGHT HERE UNABLE TO DO SHIT TO HELP YOU!"
I hugged him and let him break down crying in my arms.
Namjoon- "Jin. Time changes people. This...Can be cured. I'm on the waiting list okay?"
Jin finally hugged me back and laid hia head on my shoulder. How was I supposed to comfort him when I was a walking time bomb? My mind went back to the day that I had a relapse. Id known about it since I was a kid but had asked the doctor to tell Jin it wasnt as bad as we knew it was. My time was running out and there hadnt been any news about a doner yet, there were many many people pn the waiting list so I had to either wait it out or go ahead and die.
Jin- "Im scared Joonie...I only just got you back and I dont know what I'll do if I loose you again. I might actually loose my mind if that happens."
I smiled and rested my forehead on his lightly and closed my eyes.
Namjoon- "I know Jin. Im scared every day of this. Ive never been able to live a normal life because this shit. Im terrified that one day Ill fall so deep in love with you and then suddenly die and you'll be left here without me Jin. Im scared that I can't be with you the rest of our lives."
He wiped both of our tears and smiled at me. When he smiled he lit up my life every single time.
Jin- "That's already to late. Ive been in love with you since we were kids. Ive always believed that you of all the people in the world...You're the one that's my soulmate."
I lightly laughed at his comment.
Namjoon- "Of all the decades. The planets. The oceans. The islands. The states....I was lucky enough to meet and fall for you. I must have saved the world in my last life to have that luck Jinnie."
He smiled again and hit my arm so softly that I barely actually felt it.
Jin- "You're such a flirt. I guess I killed a nation to have such bad luck. Damn."
I smiled at his joke. He wasnt mad now so that was good but I needed go to the doctor still. I had about twenty minuets before I should go but I needed to tell that to Jin.
Namjoon- "Jin...I have to go soon. The doctors called me and said we needed to talk about this so I have to go here in a bit...I had to make sure we were gunna be okay first."
Jin- "Can I come?"
I looked at him, a little shocked at his sudden request and nodded lightly. Jin coming could help him prepare if he really wanted to be with me and I could make sure he knew everything so it hurt less when I died.
Namjoon- "I have a request if you go. They're going to have to remove my shirt to run a scan on my upper body to see if its causing anything else. They do this ever time I go so you have to behave and do as I and the doctor say."
He pouted lightly.
Jin- "You let others touch you like that?"
I sighed and kissed his head. I knew he was joking because he was worried but I also knew he understood what I was saying. I loved Jin and I wanted him to be a part of my life aince my career took a lot of time but let me have breaks if I relapsed. I hadnt relapsed in almost four years which worried me because I rarely relapsed when I was younger.
