My Idol | (Completed)

Epilogue

EPILOGUE

Seoul, Korea

Chanyeol

‘YOU KNOW WHAT Chanyeol, you really have a lot of fans.’

I chuckled as the interviewer sitting infront of me gave her praise. Nagsitilian naman ang mga babae sa loob ng studio. Iyong iba pa ay may hawak-hawak pang mga banner.

‘Can we ask something?’

‘Yeah sure.’tipid kong sagot.

‘Do you have an ideal type of girl? Who knows, maybe there’s a girl here who passed the requirements.”We both laughed. ‘Can you tell us detailed information?’she added.

Binigyan ko naman sila ng isang napakalawak na ngisi at mas lalong lumakas ang kanilang tilian. May narinig naman ako sa isang tabi na may sumigaw ng I love you, oppa!

I had fantasized that the girl I liked might also say those three words. I’m hoping that she will feel the same way I do. I just went back from Beijing not long after when she also chose to leave. I was like a mess. After confessing to the person I love, I already decided when she rejected me. Hindi naman siya unang naging akin.

I want to be the bad guy even just for once. But when I saw the two of them hurting, I chose to let go. I let her go because I wanted her to be happy. I will choose her happiness even if it’ll hurt me. Sound like a martyr, right? I’m not the leading role of the story. I’m just a supporting role. Hindi ko alam na ako lang pala ang barrier sa love story ng dalawa. Pero hindi ko rin sinasadya na mahulog sa kanya. And I didn’t even expect that I would meet her along the way, na may rason ang pagpunta ko sa China ay maaari pala akong makahanap ng magugustuhan. Tadhana nga ba talaga? But it isn’t. Maybe for some time, kailangan ko ring maging masaya kahit sa unting panahon lamang sa kabila ng mga napagdaanan ko. Moral lesson I think to strengthen my core?

Yes, when I first met her, I noticed something about her. Aside from her innocent and angelic face, it’s like there’s a part of me na gusto siyang makilala. Sa kanya ko siguro natagpuan ang ibang first ko. Nagsimula sa first meeting namin, magaan siyang kausap and you can see that she’s very a nice person from the way she act and speak. The way she smiles is very contagious. Most of all, she’s beautiful inside and out. Nasa kanya iyong mga katangian na gusto ko sa isang babae. She’s a good cook. I fell in love with her over again and again.

Gusto ko siya laging makausap at makasama. I knew that something’s different and strange kapag siya at si Luhan ang magkasama. I can feel it because I’m not a stupid and dumb. I’m a guy also. But hindi ko rin talaga mapigilan dahil umaasa ako na baka sakaling habang hindi pa naman huli ang lahat, ay magkaroon rin siya ng nararamdaman para sa akin. Hindi bilang kaibigan, pero higit pa dun.

It hurts, I know. To the point, that I want to be selfish for once. But I chose to let her go and find her happiness. Happiness with someone…

‘If you’re watching this, I hope you already found your true happiness from your genuine love. All I can say is that, Kamsamnida! and Saranghaeyo!’

Annyeong! I lose from this fight.

🌠🌠🌠

8 months later…
Philippines

Maydine

‘DOES IT mean na hindi man lang siya nagparamdam sa loob ng isang buwan?’gulat na tanong sa akin ni Krystal.