Frenemies - discontinued

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Dianne's POV
We have a day of school today as it's teacher training day so I stayed in bed for a bit longer . I felt a bit down today , I think my parents fighting is taken a toll on me. I decided to get up at ten and have a shower. When I feel down I normally write in a diary I have which I have hidden in a locked and hidden draw. Once I had a shower I made myself a bowl of cereal and took it upstairs. I unlocked the draw , took out my diary and grabbed a pen . I sat at my desk and slowly opened my diary, while eating a spoonful of cereal. I first started writing in this diary when me and joe had a falling out but then everything went down hill . I was flicking through the pages when I stopped on the page where I ranted about joe exposing my secrets. A salty teardrop rolled down my cheek, landing onto the paper.
Flashback
Me , joe and my parents were all sat down on the sofa. Joe was still angry at me as I basically told the whole of our year joe had a crush on this girl and everyone started laughing and making fun of him. " come on joe cheer up" I said nudging his shoulder. " yea because I'm going to be happy when the whole of our year is making fun of me" he replied sarcastically. "Come on joe it's just a stupid crush you had." I said feeling slightly guilty. " ok , maybe it was a crush but you didn't need to tell the whole year , now no ones going to take me seriously" he said slowly getting angry. By now my parents had gone into the kitchen to give us some privacy. " oh come on joe everyone will probably of forgotten by tomorrow." " you don't understand Di , there not going to forget it. It's all on social media and you know what everyone's like they turn little things into something much different. People are already messaging me stupid nick names and just purely making fun of me." He said anger flowing through his body. "Oh stop being pathetic" I spat , which I regretted as soon as I said it. "IM NOT" he shouted back.  My parents heard us shouting so made their way into the room but they heard something I never wanted them to hear. " ITS NOT LIkE IVE GONE AND TOLD ANYONE THAT YOU GOT PREGNANT IN YEAR 9 AND GOT AN ABORTION WITHOUT TELLING ANYONE." As soon as he shouted that he cover his mouth with his hand . "Get out" I said with anger now flowing through my body. "Di I'm so sorry" he said with guilt in his eyes and voice. "I SAID GET OUT , NOW" I screamed. Joe ran out the house and I ran upstairs, into my bedroom and locked the door behind me. My body collapsed to the floor and uncontrollable tears and sobs came out my mouth. I could here my parents shouting me down and then shouting at each other about how they should have been better parents and so on. I changed into some pjs and climbed into bed . I just payed there in silence watching as floods of messages came from joe. Some saying how sorry it was , it was a mistake, he was angry and it just slipped out his mouth. I turned my phone off and cried myself to sleep ....
End of flashback
The page was covered in tears that had escaped my eyes. I threw the book on the floor and just let out a scream . My whole world was falling apart. I want to forgive joe. But I just can't. It's his fault my parents aren't getting along. But as I think it's all my fault. I got pregnant and told the school about joe's crush. Everything was my fault.  Maybe everything would be better without me here . Maybe I should k..I burst into tears as that thought crossed my mind.