The first of the girls to come is Hayley. I ask them to come at different times so I can say goodbye to each of them properly. I feel this would be better for myself than them as I have time to process this all. I feel deep down it helps me in some way.
She walks through the door, smiling weakly to Cam and just takes the seat next to me. Her eyes wander over my pale body, I have changed quite a lot since anybody last saw me and so it must be a lot to take in. There is nothing said until she wraps her arms around me, she has already lost somebody close to her this must be quite a lot for her to deal with. She weeps and holds onto me, I just wrap my fragile arms around her, the best I can.
"You can't go through with this Alayna."
Cam goes to step in but I shake my head, I want to do this by myself. "I won't be in pain Hayley, it will be very... peaceful. Much more than if I stay around."
Somehow just by hearing the words come out of my mouth, she begins to understand and I am thankful for that. I wipe her eyes and we laugh, properly. This is the first time I have laughed in weeks, months even and at what? At how this is the last time we shall ever be together? Soon the cheer I feel overwhelming begins to vanish yet I try to keep my brave face. Painless. That's what I want, that's what everyone else wants. I don't want to lose myself, I don't want to change into someone I am not.
Hayley talks about how she wants to comeback tomorrow, how then she'll be more adjusted to it but I disagree. I insist that this is the end and that's not me trying to cause heartache but I don't want more goodbyes. I don't want to constantly put the people I love through pain when it could all end here for them. They will have time to grieve in their own homes and they will have each other, I do not want them to stay around for my last few seconds because however much I love them I don't want crying or pain. I want love and peace. We talk for a while, about memories and stupid things and soon enough Cam taps me telling me how my next visitor will be here soon enough and Hayley understands. She hugs me once more and presses a kiss to my head. Before she leaves, she walks to Cam and whispers something to him before hugging him also.
"Goodbye Hayley."
"Goodbye Alayna."
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Til Death Do Us Part
Romance"Incurable" The one word that changes everything. I never realised how much my life meant to me until it was shortened. How will I be able to cope?...... I can't
