I feel better in the morning, it is well timed and I am grateful for this circumstance however I do not use this as an excuse to get out of tomorrow. I steady myself as usual trying to take the day with the best possible care I can.
"What do you want to do today?" Cam is already dressed and begins to help me get out of bed, he's already laid out clothes and breakfast is on the table. I can't bare to think about how long he has been awake. I shake my head as I get dressed, where do I want my final visit be to? I could go anywhere if I wanted yet I feel a longing for home. Time is going on and I walk over to the window looking out over the people of the town. Watching their lives unravel makes me forget the problems i have in mine and for once everything seems normal. I would like that feeling back.
"I want to go out."
Cam walks behind me, placing his hand on my shoulder and I turn to face him.
"Where do you want to go?" I cannot manage an answer because just looking at him makes me feel as if I am home. He is my home, whenever I am with the safety I feel is unreal and I just long to lie in his arms.
"Just into town. Nowhere fancy, I want to say goodbye. I have to say goodbye to everything I have ever loved there's just four things narrowed down. Yesterday I said goodbye to my friends and family. The life I have grew up with. Today I want to say goodbye to the town I have always loved, no matter what happened I was always brought back." Cam nods and soon enough we are heading into the town centre.
We sit on a park bench, my head resting on Cam's shoulder.
"Alayna?"
"Mhm?"
Cam pauses for a slight moment, he does this whenever he doesn't know what to say. "What's the third thing? What is tomorrow for?"
I look at him and I furrow my brows slightly as my fingers lie on his shoulder. "Well, isn't it obvious?"
And of course it is but I believe he asks just for clarification. "You deserved so much more, I don't know how I will carry on without you Alayna."
"You will, promise me you will. The thought of you being hurt for a long time will crush me."
"I promise Alayna. It will be hard but I promise."
Whenever we made promises in the past, we made them with hope of a positive ending, our happy ending. That I know now will never happen.
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Til Death Do Us Part
Romance"Incurable" The one word that changes everything. I never realised how much my life meant to me until it was shortened. How will I be able to cope?...... I can't
