Lan Zhan,
For days I’ve been looking for the right words to express my feelings to you. To the man I love. And I hope I won’t disappoint you because there is so much I would like to say to you and there are not enough words to explain my deepest thoughts about you.
Thank you for entering my life when I least expected it and when I most needed it.
Thank you for regaining my hope when I’d almost given up on my dreams to find someone with whom I’d share my laughter and tears and with whom I won’t be afraid to be who I truly am.
I know it wasn’t that easy when we first met. I admit that I was too stubborn, refusing to believe that you were not like the rest of them. I guess I was too afraid of getting hurt again, so my heart unwittingly fought my brain, keeping me alert all this time.
But, somehow, you succeeded to destroy this barrier between my past and the present. No matter how hard I pushed you away, you fought harder to get closer. And I thank you for that.
I thank you for not giving up on me and for making an effort to prove to me that I was worth the fight. And I’m sorry for making it so hard for you to reach my heart. I want you to know that I am grateful for your every single word and gesture that made me feel special and loved.
