𝖆 𝖊 𝖘 𝖙 𝖍 𝖊 𝖙 𝖎 𝖈 𝖘

suicidal

-this one is also hella personal, like this is how i feel most of the time, and im sure other people do too, but i want to share it regardless-

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i dont know how the fuck im gonna say this

but i guess it has to be said

im not okay

and no one will ever

i mean ever

will understand when i say that was

hard for me to admit

ive always been scared to say it

because if i say it

it automatically becomes true

and i have to live with that

and i dont want too

i want to be happy

only a couple people can actually make me smile these days

ive been trying to hide my sadness for the longest time now

by fake smiling, laughing, comforting others

but that shit is finally starting to get to me

and i cant take it anymore

i need to focus on myself

but i know it wont happen

i just cant wait for the day that ill be happy for real

and not have to fake it

but i just wanna he happy

that's all i ask for

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