"Trust is everything, respect is earned. What do you do, when the possibilities are endless to what your heart desires? There's NO LIMITS to what the future holds"
TW: This book includes violence, drugs, and domestic abuse. Please read with caution.
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I glanced out the window admiring the view from outside when I was interrupted by a knock at the door. "Come in" I yelled. "Dr. Watson wants to see you" The assistant said before closing the door. "Shit" I cussed to myself. 1pm rolled around fast and I knew that I would have to talk and "be transparent" as they say.
It's been a rough few weeks for me, just being away from my family, and I'm not sure how much longer these people are going to continue to push my buttons. I mean, how is this going to help the fact that I'm doing coke? Can't they just give me something to detox and I just ween myself off so that I can go home to be with Kylan and Mel? Shaking my head, I left the room and walked down the hallway to meet with Dr. Watson.
I knocked on her office door, she looked up at me. "James, please come in" she encouraged. "Close the door behind you" she instructed. I closed the door and sat down on the loveseat across from her, she had a notepad in hand ready to write. "Pleasure to see you" she said noticing my unphased demeanor.
"Likewise" I said looking away, glancing out of the window. "So, James, how are you feeling today?" Dr. Watson asked. "Fine" I replied nonchalantly. I could hear her writing away on the notepad before I finally looked at her. I cleared my throat and she glared at me, "Can I ask you something?" she questioned. "Sure" I said trying to avoid the irritation that I felt creeping in my mind. "What is it that's holding you back from talking to me? James, I'm here to help and the past few weeks, we haven't made any progress" she spoke with curiosity. I shook my head and huffed, "I've opened up. I've explained why I'm here and what I want to accomplish, what more do you expect? I'm here and I'm going through the program like I promised my family. I don't understand what you mean" I spat.
Dr. Watson chuckled, "James, I've come across a lot of patients like you. To be frank, I know you're afraid of this whole set up. You come in here like you're just going to be in and out of here; as if you've "accomplished something" just to say that it's over. But will you leave Spring Gardens sober, that's up to you. I've explained it once and I will say it again, transparency is our priority here and I can't do my job effectively if we can't break any ground." I sighed and felt myself raise from the couch, "Look, I'm sorry if this isn't enough for you, but it's been a little over a month and I haven't talked to my fiancé and son. I'm not really in the mood to "vent" or do this "transparent" shit that you want me to do I said arrogantly with air quotes.
A smile crept up on Dr. Watson's face. "James, this is the process and we encourage for patients to become acclimated with the facility and learning the process of detoxing and getting back on track. This is the step towards a better future and in order to do that you have to be transparent. If you can commit to opening up to me, even just a little, I can arrange a phone call to your fiancé and son" she said convincingly.
I felt wave of excitement wash over me, but I didn't want to show Dr. Watson that she had gotten to me, so it was best that I let her know, on my terms. "I'll think about it." I said as I walked to the door. "The choice is yours James. I'll see you at our next meeting. Give it some thought okay?" her voice echoed as her office door closed behind me. I walked back to my room with a heavy heart, I missed Kylan and Mel so much, but is "being transparent" really going to change things for me? Will Dr. Watson really let me call Kylan and Mel?
