what I go through

chapter 17

Bless pov

Today we fly out and im excited to find my dad. I was putting my bag in the car and helping Sasha with Connie.

"Baby yall please be careful and send me pucs of Connie and your mom Sasha." My mom kissed all three of us and we left.

In Oakland

We just got yo Sashas mom house and we just chilling.  Tomorrow I will start my search for my dad.

"So when is Shawn coming?" I asked

"Hes here now." Sasha got up to open the door.  I couldn't believe my damn eyes when I saw him and.....

Sasha pov

Im so damn nervous!  One shawn is on his way and second Kevin is too. I got up and answered the door and let me tell you..Shawn has changed.

"You gon let us in?" He asked his voice sent shock through my body.

"I..I.im so..s.sorry." damn he got fuckin up my words. I let them in and put my head down. If I look at him I wont be able to speak. Kevin looked different too. He was neat but still has that hood in him.

"Hey Bless." Shawn spoke.  She just looked at the nigga then at Kevin. I know she gon beat my ass later.

"Um Shawn lets go to my room. Connie is up there too." We headed to my room and he went right to Connie. She was sleeping looking so cute! Connie had my color and eyes then everything else was Shawn.

"Shes two right?" He asked

"Yes today is her birthday."

" look I know she doesn't know me but I want us to work sumin out." I still had my head down.

"She knows you. I made sure even tho I didnt let her see you. And we can do that." I told him. I wanna look at him but if I do everything will start coming back. Im miss him.

Shawn pov

When I see Sasha.... imma just say I wanna make love to her. She wont look at me and I dont know why.

"Sasha why you looking down ma? You too beautiful for that." I told her. I lifted her head and I saw tears in her eyes.

"I miss you. I shouldn't have left like I did. My heart is still hurting from that.  I love you Shawn and im sorry." She had tears down her face.

"Sasha im sorry baby. I shouldn't have cheated. I love you Sasha. Baby I miss you too. I haven't been with anybody since you left. Let forgive and move on." I kissed her and melted.  Sorry if I sound gay. I deepen the kiss and she moaned. Such a turn on.

Kevin pov

"Bless?" We have been sitting her fir at least ten minutes I know. She is just looking at me. "Bless im sorry." Her eyes turned dark

"I dont fuck with you. I have moved on." It broke my heart for her to say that shit.

"Why are you so mad?"

"Im not." And she walked out the living room. What the fuck?

Bless pov

I just wanna cry. I am mad but I dont know why. I didnt mean to say that shit to kevin. Im fucked up in the head. I just dont know...

Next day

I got up got dressed and left. I went to the one place I knew my dad would be.

"Bless is that you?" Some dude yelled. I looked at him hard until I knew who he was.

"Jay?"

"In the flesh! Where have you been? You uo and left ne here by myself. " jay was one of the kids I hung with back when I stayed with my dad. His mom was in drugs so we both were at this crack house all the time.

"I had to get away.  Hows your mom?"

"Good in rehab."

"So has my dad been around?"

"Yea."

"Where?"

"Hes inside. " I walked inside and couldn't believe what I saw...
What did bless see yall?!