what I go through

chapter 22

Bless pov

I stood at my son's grave. I wish he could have been here. I havent been here in two years. I was going to name Jason Blue. I loved my baby so much. I put the flowers I had down and headed back to my old house. The walk was only 20 minutes.  I walked up the steps and looked under the mat that was still there stained with blood. I got the key and unlocked the door.  Our stuff was still here and MKs blood. I walked to our room and his stuff was still here. I looked through everything and I came across a letter.
Dear bless
If you are reading this then I see you still got love for me. Im not dead. I had to fake all of that because I had so much shit going on. Go to my trap and ask for B and you should get my adress. Bless I really love you and im sorry..

What the fuck? I stood there with my mouth covered in shock.  Hes not dead. Tears filled my eyes and begin to fall. I love him so much. I just dont know if I can live that life again.

Sasha pov

"What do you mean shes gone?" I yelled into the phone.

"Sasha dont yell at me and she left. She felt like I was leaving her and im not. I have to go. Its more money for me." Ok so from what im hearing is that Bless done gone Mf MIA on a nigga.

"Sorry Claire. Look ill call you back."

"Alright be safe and give me grandbaby a kiss."

"Ok." I walked in connie room and started packing her stuff and mine. I have to find Bless then we need to go back home. We can live on our own.

"Connie put your shoes on. We have to go see daddy and you need to tell gran gran bye." She did as told and my mom came running in the room.

"whay are you leaving?" it looked like she was about to cry.

"Mom i need to go home i cant stay here forever."

"Why though? I feel that it is safer here for the both of you."

"Mom i am safer in Atlanta."

"Look i miss you and i cant stand the fact that my grandchild is calling another women grandma and she is not!" Omg i cant believe this shit. She always wants to bring this up.

"Mom just stop that shit right now! Im tired of you doing that. Claire takes good car of Connie and she loves her. Why is that a problem? Hu? cause i thought i asked you to come mom. There is not shit here for us." I grabbed our bags and Connie and headed out. I dont have time for this.

"Mommy please dont be mad." Connie said as tears filled her eyes.

"Aw baby dont cry mommy just got a litttle upset." I took a tissue and cleaned her face. We got in the car and went to Kevin's house. I just know that she is there.

Claire pov

I am so pissed. Im lying to my child because of my husband. He doesnt want her actions in his house he sats. So we have to move. I want to leave him but i cant. I we the man. I love him too. He helped me get my life together. Im going to tell Bless the truth when we find her. I got a plane ticket to Okcland to help. I just wish i could have done better with her. Raised her right. Im pregnant now and i havent told anyone,b ut i want this child to be raised the right way.  I was getting ready to get on the plane when i seen a familiar face. I had to do a double take. It was my husband kissing some bitch! I watched as they said i love you. I quickly got on the plane and made a mental not to pack all my shit and leave his ass. I love that man and i lied to my own daughter for his ass and this is what he does!

Bless pov

I wnet to his trap and knocked on the door. I opened it and it was this fine ass Nigga at the door.

"You cant be here."

"Im Bless im looking for B. MK told me to ask for him." He looked me up and down then let me in. He led me to this office and i guess the dude sitting in the chair was B.

"Wassup?" He asked.

"Bless." the dude pointed at me.

"Alright thank you darmaree." So his name is damaree. I sat down and waited for this nigga to speak.

"Ok I guess ill start. MK told me all about you. So imma just send you to him, but word in the streets is you pushing?"

"Why?" I asked with attitude.

"Well i wanted to know if you to would work. For me?"

"No. Now i need the address. " i held my hand. Out only to receive a mug. "Look i already work for somebody would so i cant." He handed me the address. And i took off i have to see him. The address were i use to stay as a lil girl before my dad went on drugs. I got out the car which i took from kevin and walked up to the door. I knocked. Once and waited. I heard movement then the door opened.  Tears were falling from my eyes. It was him...MK...