The day you left

Chapter 5:

——————flash back—————-

I was around 6 or 7 when I first met him. My mom and him come home really high one night and passed out  in the living room. By the next morning as I'm leaving for school he came behind me covering my mouth dragging my to my room he pulls out duck tape and placed it over my mouth as I try to run away he grabs my hair I cry out in pain only to know nobody will come and save me he throws me on the bed and take off my shirt and pulls up my dress all I can do is lay there and cry. I feel two fingers I scream in pain trying to get away; he pushed me back down and told me if I disobeyed him one more time there would be a punishment I turn my head to the side and stare at the wall while he kisses all over my body and touches me where I don't wanna be touched when he is done and let's me go I get dressed as I get ready for school again.

Im now 15 the days got shorter with my mom spending more time with him he's staying Over at our house  more. I try to avoid him but that don't work anymore and now he made me one of his "girls" since he got my mom sent to prison for positive position of coke and meth. Sometime he make me do lines and if you look in between my toes that's where the needle went after that my mind is fuzzy. I wake up with no clothes on only for me to wake up with a pounding headache as I go to take a shower I hear the door open and close and I try to hurry I'm to late he pushes me against the wall and drops me to me knees. He grabs my hair in a fist and puts his 🍆 in my mouth as I try to fight him off  he pulls me hair tighter and smack me and spits in my face he picks her up turns her around and forces her out of the bathroom and into the master bedroom as my mother was out and about. He throws me on the bed and handcuffs my ankles to the bed he walks away and a few moments later he returns and I don't know what I start screaming telling him to get away NO stop and nothing worked as he has s whip and smack my stomach and titties over and over until I was beating red I stung everywhere and I hoped he would just stop there. No he gets on top and spits in my face I look away and it lands in my hair 

when he punches my in the face I black out.

I hear the doctors again and the heart monitor I slowly start to open my eyes as I look around I see the doctors and my caseworker and the house parents all looking at me I try to talk but I have a tube down my throat. Once it's out my caseworker miss.Olivia I look at her as she speaks " do you know where you're at?" "I think I'm in the hospital am I right?😂" " at least she still has her humor." The doctor cuts in and ask me what day it was and I wasn't really sure so that last date was "August 28,2015" the doctor looks at me and says " you've been in acoma for 3months and 5 days it's November 2. Do you remember how you got here?"
" not really, I remember last being in the bathroom then here and darkness. As I look down I see a DNR bracelet. I lookin shock as I see the even my own caseworker didn't care if I died well I guess less paperwork once the doctors finish up it's only my Olivia and I "now why don't you stop lying and tell me what you did to end up here." "I'm not lying I don't remember much about it why don't you ask the school." I tell her to leave and she goes I'm all alone good that's fine I close my eyes and try to get some rest all I can think of is Nicole and when she left. I knew exactly how I got there but she probably already knows to why I'm here I try and focus on one thing and all I come back to is Nicole. As the nurses do their check in I hear one saying I have a guest not really caring who it is I wave my hand off not wanting to see anybody I look back curious wanting to know who and I see it's Nicole resisting everything in me saying come back she turns around and I start to cry as I look down so see al of my once fresh cuts but now scars I start to pull out all my IV's and Alarms start to go off I begin scratching my scars open as the nurses all file in I see her in the back as she's in tears I "turn off everything" as the put all clean needles and fix me up she ask again and I let her back. "I've missed to girly." As she comes and sets next to me "what do you want?" I know I'm not living at the group home. So why are you here it's not like you came to visit me the whole time I was asleep?" As my BP starts rising and a light comes on as a nurse asked me if I'm ok. I answer with I fine could I have a cup of ice please." "One moment" she walks away and me and Nicole continue " I did come visit you every day the same time hoping you would wake up I read to you talked about my day how much I missed you hoe much I wish I could hear your voice scarlet my heart has been an absolute wreck watching you go though this while you were probably on a nice mind vacation." Raising my voice a little "I've been reliving my worst nightmare theses last 3 months over and over so please tell me what fun there is when your getting raped and beat over and over constantly screaming out wishing to wake up for someone to save me."