I thank Yeosang as he pours me a cup of tea. Last time I was in his house things didn't go according to plan, this time I feel much more relaxed.
Yeosang: Why me?
Why not you?
Me: You seemed like a challenge, I like a challenge.
Yeosang: Are you looking for a master or just a fun night?
One night! You don't need a master right now you're too fragile!
Me: I'm not sure.
The worse part about a kink is the craving for it, once one thing triggers it you're done. You're in a constant neediness until you get it. Once I seen Yeosang's face and felt his demeanor my insides awakened.
Yeosang: Ropes.
I glance up at him and nod.
Yeosang: Tying people up, hot wax, choking.
I smile, my type of party.
Yeosang: That's all soft to me.
My smile falls.
Yeosang: I like knives, chains, simulation drowning, needles, crying and screaming.
Well fuck.
Yeosang: Down in my basement is my chamber that I call Devil's Playground. I'll give you a week to decide if you have what it takes to visit.
Me: I do.
He shakes his head.
Yeosang: I've had two girls run out of here screaming for their lives, another girl had to transfer colleges because she was too afraid to face me.
He stands up and walks over to my side of the table. His intense gaze meet my eyes before flashing me his famous smirk.
Yeosang: Think about it.
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It's been a week and I haven't texted Yeosang, he hasn't reached out to me either. Whenever we're both hanging with Cina he ignores my presence completely.
A sigh leaves my lips as I make my way to the ATM for my share of the rent.
My blood runs cold once I notice my bank account is completely empty. What the hell?
Checkings: $0.00
Savings: $0.00
I begin to hyperventilate, what the hell am I going to do now? I had at least a thousand saved up and now it's just gone.
Someone taps my shoulder and I spin around, she stands there in an oversized Monsta-x hoodie. I force a smile on my face as I compliment her merch.
Santana: It was a gift, what's wrong?
Me: Nothing, I'm okay.
She stares at me before shaking her head.
Santana: We don't know each other like that but I can't turn my back when you're damn near about to have a breakdown.
I let out a sigh before explaining the short version of what happened. I can't tell her the whole thing because she'd probably stay far away from me.
Santana: Let me make a call.
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My eyes widen once she puts the money in my hand.
Me: H-how?
Santana: They get on my damn nerves but they're always there when I need them, break or not.
I pull her into a hug thanking her over and over, she smiles and pats my back.
Santana: I know what it's like to struggle.
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Yeosang and I stare at each other not saying anything.
Yeosang: So?
Me: I'll do it.
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going to bed bc i feel like a truck ran me over
