My possessive ex

Trust or foolishness?

A/N's P.O.V.
Ciara fell asleep in Ezra's arm and he carried her to his bedroom and tugged her in. „Goodnight, honey." He kissed her and went to sleep beside her.

-Next Morning-
Ciara woke up in Ezra's embrace. He looked really handsome and even cute while sleeping. „My little monster.", she mumbled. „What did you just call me?" He was awake as she carressed his face. „I thought you would be sleeping.", she answered while blushing hardly. He hugged her tightly and started to plant butterfly kisses on her face. „You are my little monster, honey.", he said giggling. „Ezra stop... I need to get ready..." He finally let go of her.

Ciara's P.O.V.
I got up and started to get ready. Ezra's bathroom was huge. Oh man, that's awesome. I took a quick shower and wrapped myself in a towel. Oh no, I forgot to ask him for clean clothes! After peeking into the bedroom, I saw him sitting on the bed checking his phone. „Uhm,... Ezra... could you give me some clean clothes...." His head shot up. „Sure." He smiled at me and walked over to his closet to hand me one of his huge t-shirts and shorts. „Thank you.", I mumbled and closed the door in order to change. When I got out of the bathroom, I saw him waiting for me. „I will get ready as well.", he uttered before heading towards the bathroom. I on the other hand went downstairs to prepare breakfast. He already did it the last time. Even his kitchen was gigantic. Why does he always need everything to be so big? Anyways, I want to make some pancakes, toast with sour cream and bacon and serve fruits with it. I know that that is his favourite breakfast. After 15 minutes I was done and washing some of the dishes I used. Suddenly, I felt someone backhug me. „It smells so nice, honey.", he mumbled while spreading butterfly kisses on my neck and jawline. „Thank you." I started blushing. „We should start eating, otherwise the food will get cold." He let go of me and we sat down. Again, his kitchen table was designed to seat at least 20 people. I waited till he started eating. After shoving the food into his mouth, he started moaning. „Ciara, your food is the best." I blushed again. „No need for exaggerations. ... Can I ask you something?" „Sure, go ahead. Ask me anything, sweetheart.", he said while eating like he has been starving for days. „Why is everything in your apartment so...huge? It is like it was designed for at least dozen of people to live here." He froze a little bit, being taken aback by my question. „I bought it right before you left me. The actual plan was to move in here with you and found a family." His pure honesty shocked me. What, he wanted to move in here with me? I knew that he has been quite successful when I left him. Of course, he was able to afford such a house at that time. But the second part made me sick. He planned to have children here. And who knows how many he imagined to have, since everything was set up to fit an army in here. It did not sicken me that he was thinking about having children with me, because when we married we were so happy together and worked hard in order to provide for a family in the future. However, before I left him, our relationship was not healthy at all. He wanted to control me and he was a pain in the ass, since he was stressed all the time because of work. Did he seriously think that we could have brought a child into that? „Hey, why are you so quite. It didn't happen. I am over it. No need to stir up old baggage." Although he said that, I knew that he was deeply hurt. After breakfast we cleaned up and I headed back to my apartment to change in order to get to work. Work was nice, but I couldn't get Ezra's statement out of my head. I knew that he wanted children. However, I didn't realize that he wanted them so eagerly at that time. Would he still be interested-... no, no, we are still not a real thing. I mean, technically we are still married, but I don't know what to call our current relationship status. When work ended, I headed home directly. I need a soothing bath and some alone time. Unfortunately, my thoughts got interrupted by my phone buzzing. I picked it up and saw the caller-ID. My mood was lifted up immediately. „Hey girl! Do you want to go out to drink some cocktails with us?", my friend squealed through the phone. Should I accept? But my bathtub is awaiting me. On the other hand, human interaction is always good. „Sure. Just text me when and where we will meet.", I replied. „Yeah, I can finally see you again munchkin! See you at 10pm at the bar. I will text you the details." She hung up. Oh no.... she texted me the address of a club. Gosh, that girl... As I finally got home, I still decided to take a bath. It was fantastic, but I got interrupted by a phone call. This time it was Ezra. „Hey, honey. How are you?" „Good. How about you?" „Fine, this morning was nice. If you are free, we could ...meet for dinner again." He sounded shy and insecure. „I am sorry, but I yam already meeting a friend tonight." Silence. „Okay, no problem. What... did you plan to do?" Here he is. The old Ezra, always trying to be informed about everything I am doing, especially with whom I am spending time with. He was extremely possessive. Maybe he didn't change at all. „I am just going out to have a drink with an old friend of mine." I didn't need to answer him, but I was so used to giving in to him that I did it absentmindedly. „Well, I hope you have fun. Text me, if you came home safely, okay?" „Yeah. Bye, Ezra." I was smiling. He did not pester me at all. Wow.
After the bath,  I began to prepare for tonight. I wanted to look good. For myself! I chose to wear a tight black dress that had thin straps, hugged my curves and ended above my knee. I paired black stilettos with it. My hairstyle was simple. I brushed my hair and let it fall over my shoulders loosely. After that I applied my makeup. I applied a bold eyeliner to accentuate my big eyes, a lot of mascara and a lipbalm with red tint. In the end, I wore a leather jacket over my dress. Finished. I checked myself in the mirror. Perfect. I was pleased with my appearance.
I drove to the club my friend Sarah wanted to meet me in. As soon as I entered the club, I could see drunk people having the time of their lives on the dance floor. It took me some time to find Sarah at the bar. She was flirting with the barkeeper. „Hey, did you already forget about me?" I asked her accusingly. „Ciara, it is so nice to meet you. Our little workaholic finally came out of her dungeon!" I started laughing. „Yeah. How are you? How are the others?" „Fine. My law firm got a new intern and I just want to squeeze him to death. He is so cute. Maybe I should introduce him to you?" „Oh no. I don't to meet anyone right now." She frowned. „Listen, I know you are still in love with Ezra, but that asshole destroyed you. You need to let go, otherwise you will never be happy." „Well, about that..." I wasn't sure whether I should tell her... but I needed to tell her eventually. „The truth is I am actually seeing him again." „What?!" She spit her drink out of her mouth. It took me twenty minutes to tell her about what happened. Sarah was shocked. „Are you sure that you want him? I mean he is so obsessed with you." I zipped on my drink. „Surprisingly, I still want him. My feelings for him never changed. However, I need to tell him that I won't be a puppet for him." „Yes! Don't forget about it when you are making out with him." „Sarah!" She was laughing hysterically. „It's so funny that out of all people you are the one falling head over heels for her ex again. But I know that you guys are inseparable and could work it out together." „Hmm.." I kept zipping on my drink. „Are you still taking your medication?" Her question was weird. „Yeah, why?" „Who knows, maybe he wants to knock you up before you could leave him again." „Sarah, what the fuck..." „Did he use a condom when you guys were doing it?" Oh my. She made a valid point, but he wouldn't do something like that, right? „No..." „I don't want to accuse him, but you should still be careful. You know how he always claimed you as his. Maybe now he sees his chance to do that for eternity." This idea shook me to my core. „I will be careful." The rest of the night was nice. Sarah and I ordered more cocktails and ended up on the dancefloor. It was already 4am when I came back home. I entered my apartment and took my clothes off, not caring where they landed. I was too tired. After taking a shower, I went to sleep.