Upside down

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"Jay stop, no we can't." I gulped as he inched closer to me.

He didn't listen, instead he closed the gap between us and put his lips on mine. I was getting in to it and desperately kissing back. The soft feeling of his lips on mine was addictive. A feeling I missed so much.

I rolled over on top of him and groaned when I was met with the cold hard floor. I opened my eyes to find I was in my bedroom, no Jay to be found and only the pain from slamming into the ground.

Yes, it was only just a dream. I sat up feeling so confused. It felt so real, too real. He was right here on my bed and he looked so good. I kissed my teeth at myself and got up to get ready for work.

The entire time in the shower I couldn't figure out why I had that dream and why I remembered it so vividly. It was on replay in my head and frankly... I didn't know how to act.

I went to bed pretty late last night because Jay and I had been talking on the phone for hours like a pair of school kids. Maybe that's why I had that dream. I decided to shake it off and get ready to start my day.

I got back to London a week ago and Jay got back to Korea around the same time. Ever since our encounter we've been talking a lot more. A lot more about anything and everything. We had so much to catch up on since we haven't spoken for years. I was enjoying it, I missed his goofy ass so much.

I was happy with the way things were going since it felt like we could actually be friends again but this dream completely threw me off. Was it because I secretly want this to happen? Well it's not really a secret that I think he's mad attractive but this dream was a little...much.

Once I made it to work my manager, also bestfriend and other half handed me my starbucks.

"You ready for this shoot?" She asked

"Jas I'm so not ready, I have so much to tell you." I sighed collapsing on the sofa in the dressing room.

I wasted no time and got to telling her all the details about my dream.

I met Jas right after I broke up with Jay. My relationship had gone down the drain, my career had gone down the drain since I fired my manager and everything was falling apart. I met her at the bar of a club where I was shamelessly drinking and crying away. From then on we got on like a house on fire and she became my ride or die.

"That's crazy." She commented looking at me with an amused smile.

When I'd told her about my encounter with Jay she was not happy at all. She basically had to pick up all the pieces after he broke me in the first place and she was not a big fan of his. However, the more I told her about our conversations and how he's really matured he started to grow on her.

"What does it mean?" I asked feeling flustered again.

I took a sip of the iced caramel macchiato in attempt to cool myself down.

"Well it's obvious what it means." She laughed making me roll my eyes.

We didn't have anymore time to chat since I had to start my shoot. It was a quick one but I was out of it the entire time the male model I had to pose with was getting irritated with me. I quickly apologised before snapping out of it and doing my job properly.

My heart skipped a beat once I saw I had a missed FaceTime call from Jay. I was finally done with the shoot and I was back in the dressing room after getting changed back in to my joggers and my sleeveless white top. I smiled while calling him back.

I had my face beat from the shoot, it was a pretty look with lot of blush and faux freckles. I had my curls slicked into a low bun with my edges twirled into pretty curls. I was happy that I was finally FaceTiming him while looking decent every other time we've FaceTimed he'd catch me before I went to bed with no makeup and the fatigue evident in my face.

Once he picked up my heart fluttered, I'm guessing it was night time for him since he looked like he was in bed, of course he didn't have his shirt on which had me blushing. Never gets old. Thank god the makeup would hide it. His smile was warming my heart, his smile always made my day.

"Oh wow you look beautiful." He said making me smile shyly.

Although he's basically an old friend he still manages to make me feel all shy, he even had that affect on me even when we were in a relationship.

"Thanks love I just got done with a shoot." I said

"Oh that's why you didn't catch my call, I was at the studio I wanted your input on a song." He said yawning.

I felt bad knowing I'd have to wrap up the call since he was tired. He must've been at the studio all day.

"Awh I'm sorry I'll listen to it tomorrow when you wake up." I said pouting making him smile.

"Nah don't worry about it, also I wanted to tell you that I might be coming to London soon." He said

My reaction was too quick and too enthusiastic.

"Really?!" I exclaimed with excitement and joy bursting through me.

It was too late to act all chill now since he was laughing and I was too excited to care.

"When?" I asked

"In about a week I need some inspo to write some romance songs and what better place than London to get some love inspo." He said

My stomach did some flips knowing he was referring to me as his source of love inspo.

"What better place than London." I repeated smiling.

We spoke for a few more minutes before I forced him to hang up and go to sleep since he was clearly knackered.

I basically skipped to the car and Jas gave me a weird look before shaking her head and starting the car up.

"What?" I sang knowing what she was going to say.

"Look here Ella, I'm happy that you're happy but don't dive in head first please be careful with Jay I don't ever wanna see you as hurt as you were before." Jas said

"Babe don't worry, I can handle myself and besides it's been four years we have both grown as people I'm not the same naive girl." I said halfheartedly ,not even believing myself.

"Just be careful please Ella." Jas sighed

I proceeded to tell her that he'd be here in a week and she would have the chance to meet him and see how much of a decent person he is for herself. I sighed thinking about how we were all fully aware of what direction this was headed in but I just hoped to god this time that we would last.

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