Writing's Second Taste

Chapter Twenty-Eight: Stay With Me

"The guy you've been dating is my cousin?" I gaped, shoving Andy from her side.

"He's your cousin?" she quipped back with the same disbelief.

"You two know each other?" Andy fired, finding his spot between us.

Emma was full-on laughing from behind us, she didn't even bother to hide her amusement at the whole predicament. Meanwhile, the three of us just stood there, our gazes switching towards each other.

"Sienna's my roommate," she said, "Again, you two are cousins?"

Oh god no, he was cheating on you behind his back because there was no other possible reason why I was standing here inside his apartment.

Girl, of course he was my cousin.

"I'm out," I placed my hands up in mock surrender, "Bye."

She reached out and gripped my wrist, "Don't."

Girl, I'm not affected in any way that you're dating my cousin. I could care less, as long you both were happy. But like what my uncle said, Andy already has one sister teasing him. Plus, there was going to be some sort of uncomfortable tensions because of this dramatic entrance.

"You owe me a ton of explanation when you get back to the dorm," I pointed towards her, my tone light to assure her that I wasn't upset or any of that sort, "So if you'll excuse me, I'm going to tell Meg all about this so you can feel how stupid it is to be interrogated."

With a tight lipped smile and a joking salute to everybody in the room, I quickly got out. Though I only managed to take a couple of steps before I went back in. I smiled sheepishly as I quietly grabbed my coat and other belonging before heading out once again.

Gosh, I just finished dealing with all the Heart and Axel fiasco now I had to think about that.

I paused just in front of Adam's door, staring at it. It was screaming at me, telling me to go on and knock on it. Talk it out, say I wasn't sure where I want us to go – say all of the uncertainty I was feeling.

And ask for forgiveness because I can never give my all to him.

But I didn't.

I simply continued on with my steps, heading towards the elevator. Was it a good decision to do so? Probably not.

Meg wasn't there when I got back to the dorm so I opted to wait around in my room instead. I took out the sketchbook and flipped it open to a page I was very proud of.

Justin's sketch.

Why was it so easy to love him yet it was totally different from Adam?

When he asked me out, I was so ready to jump in. Maybe it was high school innocence, but I did not feel any hesitation when I said yes. I wasn't inkling for him to ask me to be his girlfriend, I was just happy when he did. There was no impatience, there was no tiptoeing, just laughter and joyful acceptance.

But Adam? I couldn't even ask him if he wanted to be in a relationship with me. Every time we take a step forward, something happens and we take five steps back.

It was tiring.

While he gave up Heart because she lived in another world, he had somehow forgotten that he did as well. He freaking lives with celebrities as if it was nothing, while I was a writer who belonged to the world of words and emotions.

And he should stay here, while I should go back to New York.

"You're making a confused face again," Meg knocked lightly on the opened door, "Where's Julia?"