I woke up to a horrible feeling below my waist.Why would Carter do this to me?I tried to sit up but couldn't it hurts so much.I was still bleeding.No one could hear my voice,no one would care.
"Mommy I'm so so sorry"i whispered before grabbing a knife off the counter and stating to cut my self.
pain was my relief,there was nothing like it,it felt.....great.
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--------------------------------a few minutes later-----------
I now have 56 cuts some of which I deserve some of which I do not but should still have for my stupid behavior these last few days.
How can my hole life change in such little amount of time?
Everybody has positive karma...and I'm here in my bed complaining about my self ,crying into ny pillow with a dog by my side.I'm so week...
I'm just gonna lay down here until I ran out of tears to cry.
If Carter's plan was to break me...I congratulate him....
Thank you Carter......
