A few hours later
I was still on my bed cutting myself the pain didn't hurt anymore,maybe if I go deeper?
I was a bout to tear a hole in my wrist when my dad called me."Jenaveev dinner's ready!!!!"
I couldn't yell back I wad still crying,so I texted him.
~I'm not hungry daddy
~are you sure it's your favorite ~it's fine
~are you ok sweetie
~yes daddy I'm fine
~ok babygirl i love you
~bye
I put my phone back on the counter and cried rivers into my hands.
Why does everything happen to me?!
"Jens"I smiled to my self as I remember my mom's old nickname for me.
I let the blood dry up without moving an inch.I'm still bleeding,I'm crying,I'm a disaster,I'm a disappointment,I'm a humiliation.I didn't deserve to live.Out of all people why me?
Mommy,I miss you,with all my heart,I love you.....
