The way my mind works
Has always felt like a curse
The thoughts that come first
Are always the worst
My head threatens to burst
With these desires and thirsts
Always wanting to hurt
But
Once it's calm
Though it's not for long
It's more like a blessing
It's no longer depressing
I'm no longer guessing
If things could be messing
Or make me start stressing
With how I'm confessing
What I feel
And here it is
A feeling I missed
For the first time in forever
After this painful endeavor
I don't hate myself anymore
