The Mother of All

A Small but not so Happy Reunion

Rose's POV

I was enjoying my time alone watching the waves roll up to me. The sun kissed my skin. I hadn't felt so relaxed in years, but it didn't last. The scene in front of me dissolved and slowly slipped into a different one. This had never happened in all the centuries of being dead. I was the only one who could change the world around me. I felt sick to my stomach as the familiar run down city was in replace of my sunny beach. This meant one or two things a high ranking angel fell or Chuck came for another visit. Neither one was something I wanted. I took the elevator up to the top floor, only to see two people. One was laying on the floor with dried blood pooled on his chest. My heart sank in my chest. My youngest son lay dead only a few feet away. I never even got to see his first steps and to see him here now like this... I tried to speak to the man sitting in front of me but the only thing that came out were sobs. He sat silent as I held Gabe in my arms running my hands through his hair waiting for him to wake up. He would at some point. I knew that but my mind wouldn't listen. All I could think of was the fact that my little boy was dead. Yes he got to experience the world but he shouldn't be dead he was meant to live forever but then again so was I. After a while I regained my breathing and gained the courage to talk. I wasn't sure how long it took but it hadn't felt like long enough. It never would.

"Chuck what happened?" My voice was hoarse from crying and hardly above a whisper but he still knew what I was asking. He always seemed to know what I was going to say.

"It was Lucifer..." It came out choked and for the first time I really took a look at him. He looked exhausted like all of the life was drained out of him. I never realized that maybe this was as hard on him as it was me. He left them when he thought they were old enough to be on their own but maybe he was starting to regret it. Maybe this was a wake up call.

"Why would he kill Gabe? That doesn't make any sense. Lucifer wouldn't kill his own brother." I didn't want to believe him. After everything that happened I couldn't wrap my mind around it. Gabe was his favorite brother. He promised me he would protect him the day he was born.

"Gabe got in his way Rose! Lucifer did it because he could. Because he needed to. Hell he probably wanted to!" Chuck's voice was full of venom and hate. I had never heard of him like this. It was as if something inside him finally snapped.

"Lucifer would never do something like this on purpose..." I said in a voice no louder than a mouse, but as I kept thinking about the little boy I left, anger rose inside of me, "You could have stopped it Chuck! You could have made him see differently! Our son isn't the monster you keep telling everybody he is. You put him down all the time for once can't you just talk to him Chuck? I died for them the least you can do is try to understand them." I tried to hold back my anger. I didn't want another argument with him but this was the hardest thing that I've ever had to go through and I died. I didn't see my boys grow up but somehow this... this was worse. It felt like a roller coaster that goes plummeting making your stomach drop and you feel weightless and sick.

"Why don't you see he's not the little boy you left! You know I blame myself for what happened to you. It's hard not to hate yourself when I practically killed the only person I ever loved! I wasn't fit to be a parent Rose... at least not without you. It wasn't my fault you died Rose and I know that but I can't convince myself of that! How can't you see that I'm sorry?! I keep losing everything in my life. I wish I was dead and you were here with me... I don't want to be broken anymore." Tears streaked down his face as he yelled. I didn't know what a broken man really was until I saw him like this. He normally would be strong for both of us but right now he was a mess. Like it or not, I didn't raise our kids he did and I never gave him credit for what he did.

"I'm sorry." He looked down at me, his chin resting on his hands that were slightly shaking.

It was as if he didn't even hear me he just kept talking in his own little world lost within his own mind, "I tried to be a good father... I swear I did, it's not like I've done this before, but then you died trying to protect Micah... and everything went downhill. I didn't love you like I should have and I'm sorry. I didn't do anything that I should have. I have made so many mistakes but Lucifer deserved to go to hell Rose. Do you have any idea what he did after you died?." Anger seared through me. If a human had done what Lucifer did he would forgive them. If a human did anything our kids have done it would have been fine. All because Lu spoke up and he had a reputation to uphold he overreacted.

"Lucifer never listened just because I died doesn't mean he was any different. You walked out on them Chuck of course they didn't do what you wanted. All Lu ever wanted was to be a good son and you threw him in hell. After everything he did. You corrupted our son with the mark of cain and it didn't work like what you thought it would. You can't blame him for that. Then when he corrupted our creation you couldn't stand it. You know I couldn't care less about the humans if it means my kids are unhappy. I just want our family to be together that's all I've ever wanted."

I didn't know how long it was days and nights run together in heaven but when Gabriel finally did wake he was surrounded by the two people that loved him most. Even if one didn't show it and the other one was dead we did love him. He was our last happy moment.

He looked up at me confused and then looked back over at Chuck as he slowly was trying to sit up but failing to do so still weak from the arch angel blade that ran through his chest.

"Dad? Who is this?" He said looking at me. I held back a sob that scratched at my throat. I held back the tears that threatened to burn my skin like acid and instead I let them burn at my eyes. My sweet angel didn't recognize me but I shouldn't have expected it. Why would he? He hadn't even been a year old when I died. Chuck was the only parent he knew.

"Gabe this is your mother." His head stilled lay in my lap as I ran my fingers through his hair that reminded me of my own so soft with a slight curl. He looked up at me and smiled a few tears ran down his face but I quickly wiped them away.

"Where am I?" I saw sparks of curiosity he had as a baby. Always looking around trying to see what everything was. Always trying to put stuff in his mouth. Thankfully he was past that stage.

I answered back before Chuck could. I wanted to be the one to tell him. Chuck wasn't good at telling bad news to say the least, "Your in heaven my son and your safe now Gabe."

"But it doesn't look like I remember?" He was clearly very confused much like I was the day I died.

"This is where powerful angels go when they..." I hesitated who wouldn't?, "When they die." I tried to say it softly trying not to alarm him but it didn't work. Not that I expected it to.

"I'm dead but how..." He was cut off by his own mind as it replayed the events that ended him up in this situation. Most people don't remember their death only the reminder of it can trigger the memory and even then it sometimes isn't enough. When it was over he was silent. He then got up steadying himself and the nearest objects around him and left down the elevator wanting to be alone with his thoughts. At that moment he reminded me of how his father used to be when I had first met him.

I was the first to break the silence, "Chuck I... never mind." When I looked up I noticed he was gone anyway. I wished he would have stayed...

A/N: Hello it's me Clary back from the dead. Not actually but close enough from it. Its been a stressful few months but I'm doing okay for the most part now. I wanted to get this out a while ago and I tried to do a Christmas special but it didn't end up working out. I'm getting back on track and will be trying to get into my Monday and Friday schedule again starting next week. (If you don't know what my scheduled is look at my announcements) Thanks for being so patient. I'm so grateful for all of you and I wish an amazing rest of your day or night wherever you are in the world.    

-CS :)