More than hate. Less than love

Writing process

Kenzie POV
He yelled at me. He screamed for me to leave, he has never asked me to leave.

As I get out of his car tears start to creep into my eyes, as I start to look back at him and I just see him sitting there with his face in his hands. I wanted to hug him but I have to remember that he told me to leave so I just need to leave him alone. As I walk into the house I see Maddie and kailand at the kitchen table. "Your back already. It only been like 10 minutes" Maddie said looking at her phone "um.....we canceled out plans like 2 minutes ago" I say trying not to cry "are you ok" kailand asked looking at me "yeah I'm fine" I say turning around to go upstairs "I swear I will beat the shit out of him" he said "nah we are all good" I say running upstairs

As I get upstairs I see that he is in him room, he looks like he is on the phone in a very serious conversation. I guess he caught me staring because he just shook his head and turned the other way. I just walked over to my bed and sat there and cried. I kept crying until I heard a knock on my door "come in" I yelled trying to clean myself up "hey Kenz. What's up with you" Maddie asked "nothing. Ik all good" I say smiling "you got into fight didn't you" she asked sitting by me "it was all my fault, I could have just left it alone but I had to go through his stuff. I brought up how his parents are never home. I'm such a dumbass" I says crying

"hey it's ok, he will forgive you" she said hugging me "no not this time, he said he was done with me. And he never breaks what he says, I always question him, I just can't get over the fact that dad literally left mom and I feel like he's going to do the same like Hayden and I don't want that again" I yelled at her "chill it's just a boy" she said "no you don't get it. This is Johnny Orlando, my BOY he literally hasn't gone on any dates since we met. He's mine and I pushed him away" I yelled even louder "calm down. Do you want me to call Carson over or Brynn" she asked "yes please. But right now I wanna be alone" I said shoving her out of my room "ok ok" she said surrendering and walking away.

As I close the door behind her I slide down the door and just cry, I keep crying until I hear the front door slam shut. "Hey Kenz, can you open up" a voice said "you knock you dumbass" another voice said. I just laugh and open the door. I was immediately drowned by hugs "are you ok. Do I need to knock some sense into him" Carson asked curiously "no it was my fault, I pushed him and I said done shit about his parents" I said quickly "oh yeah it's totally her fault" Brynn said not helping me at all. The rest of the night we just talked about me and Johnny until Carson pointed out something.

"I'd that your old song book" he asked getting g up and grabbing it "oh yeah. We used to write crappy songs in them" I said laughing "we made some bangers let's see" he said flipping through the pages.
"How about this one" he stated singing

You and I used to walk the streets at night
Our parents didn't know, kept the TV going
And left on all the bedroom lights
And no, I haven't seen you since we lost all our innocence
You left me in the dark while you drink in the park
We'll never be the same again

I start singing as well

You and me were so, so close
And maybe that's what hurts the most
It's out of my hands, I've done what I can
So I just save my breath

Deep in my heart, I know that it's over
Deleted your number so I can't call you
Call you my brother, the way that we used to
When we were younger, younger

He sings alone

I saw you just the other night
I didn't even recognize you
Find it kind of strange, I guess that people change
But I didn't expect you to