Bleeding For Him (BNHA) (TODOSHIMA) ( COMPLETED)

Chapter Seven

*Shouto's P.O.V*

I really hate Eijiro right now. How can he be so fucking stupid. If he gets that surgery, there is no chance of him ever finding someone who can care for him, to make sure he is well mentally, physically, and emotionally. Someone to be there for him. Everything that I've never had. I don't want him to get the surgery because than he will never love again, and he could never love me.

"Are you okay?"
I jump as I'm snapped out of my thoughts by Ochako's voice and hand in my face. I nod my head because I'm to shaken by my thoughts to properly respond.
"Are you sure? You looked like you were about to cry."
"I'm sure I'm just... thinking again."
"Shouto we're really worried about you."

I turn to see Izuku looking at me concern written all over his face. Izuku probably has a good idea of what's going on because he can read me like I'm an open book. He knows I have a crush but he doesn't know who it is I turn to meet the eyes of the rest of my worried friends when I see him. Eijiro. Talking to Katsuki. My heart nearly broke into a million pieces when I saw the look on Eijiro's face. It's not love, he looks dead. All of his natural perfection gone, like it was never there. Eijiro got the surgery and didn't even tell me. I hope it doesn't work and it wears off, so I can get him back. Fuck it I have to talk to him.

"Eijiro can you come here?"

Eijiro turns around and the first thing I notice is his eyes. They're dull and bland. He is not the Eijiro that I know the Eijiro that I fell in love with. I pull Eijiro aside so I can talk to him.

"Eijiro what the hell is wrong with you! It ruined you! The surgery fucking ruined you"

I start crying as I realise that I might never get my Eijiro back he is truly gone. I hug him as sobs wrack my body and he just stands there. Just stands there and does nothing. I stop my crying and look him straight in the eyes with all the confidence and dignity that I have left.

"Eijiro, I thought you would understand, I told you what would fucking happen and now look at you, I was right. You know what? I hate to do this but I won't talk to you until the Eijiro that I know comes back. In case you need a description of my expectations here it is. Loyal, humorous, charismatic, energetic, and most importantly manly. And until you meet those standards, I'm afraid I can't bare to even look at you."

I look at Eijiro for a response but he just looks at me with his dull, blank, beautiful eyes looking completely unphased and says.

"Well you know what? I have Katsuki back now so I'm okay, I can talk to him now without killing myself and that's all I wanted."

I look at Eijiro with disbelief as he walks away. Did I really just say I won't talk to him? When he needs me most? I'm such a fucking asshole. I wipe my tears and go back over to my friends putting my mask back on in the process.